Sunday, February 26, 2006
School life has really been super hectic and i feel totally like a beeeeee. sighs. School work just keeps piling up, even though when i do it consistently. You must be wondering why... well, i also wonder WHY. The simple thing is, teachers are vicious creatures who want to send us all to hell. haha..k lar.. SOME.. not all.. But my German teacher is definitely one of the most extreme ones you can ever find! =/ I am dying from the amount of stress im having now. =( It's overbearing! boo! It's like carrying one whole bag of stones to school everyday... and going home with even more stones.What a sad life i have man.=(
k... well, i still feel v. depressed, even when i work a lot harder this year.. and i really try to work smart too. I still fail my tests and I am really totally discouraged by HER. She really makes me want to cry at times. Oh.. I did cry on Fri. =( I just don't understand why SHE cant treat us at least a bit better. Does she really detest us, or what? I really feel that a teacher should always be v. caring and encouraging. I know she wants to drill us as hard as possible but i think its really too much for me to take. For many a times during lessons, i could feel that my heart almost stopped beating for a moment or so.. if not, i get super jittery about it. =((( It's ABSOLUTELY bad for health, but what can i do? I feel like penning a letter to her, asking her for opinons like whether my ****** is really that bad a standard. I really put in my utmost effort in almsot everything i do, at least from this year onwards. If it is really the case, maybe the subject that i will drop is THAT, cos it really takes up damn a lot of time in my tight schedule. =( I mean, i enjoy learning THAT but it is really painstaking nowadays. Why is education getting so hard nowadays?? grrr. Im pissed.
Oh well, talking about things on the EVEN duller side of life, I feel really sorry for the Africans kids who contracted AIDS. sighs. they are SO young and they definitely have a really different childhood from us. Imagine this.. like a few years later u are born, u are being sent to some centre or hospital to receive treatment ( if possible) with some other strangers. Everyday just lie on the bed to wait for volunteers to attend to you, gulping down any medicine u are being offered. I bet they don't even know wad is AIDS. What i feel is, they think that its a norm to get AIDS as many other kids and adults over there are HIV positive too. It is really an example of a vicious cycle. It cant really be prevented and it's definitely robbing ppl's of their lives. After watching Shi Jie Yi Zhou, i suddenly feel that I want to become a missionary doctor. I mean.. I alweez wanted to be one... but now, the urge seems stronger. Light up the passion! well, guess i ll commit myself to that after I have reached an age of about 45. hehe. Must accomplish smth simpler in life first, before venturing out for the bigger ones!
mm.. just wanne say jia you to myself and everyone! heh. Life has not been easy at all since the start of JC life... man.. i still cannot believe that i GOT tricked by ppl who said that JC life is the MOST FUN-FILLED one... goSh... what a Hypothesis/Myth. =.=.... I think these two years will be my most unbearable years of all!!!! =(( k lar.. not becox I dun have good frenz here but the workload in Nj is simply 'fascinating'. Just hope dat i dun die flat so soon... arghss. and yar... i tore one of my ligaments completely.. boo... Went for physio with some ruggers on fri... went for a massage for my left ankle.. GOSH>>> i was SCREAMING and SQUEALING and SCREECHING... SO painful!!! omg... =((
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