Monday, January 30, 2006
Happy Chinese New Year everyone! hMm.. woa.. it has been like almost two months ever since i BLOGGED!!! *gaspp*
k lar... School has been really hectic since the start of the year! Woa. In a wink of an eye, a month is almost coming to an end! Gosh. 1o more dreadful months to the big big As! omg lar. Time really flew past. I still remember vividly the time when I first stepped into Nan Hua. haha. I was still a kid. I was still so innocent and immature at that time. haha. Okie.. Im STILL an innocent lil girl.. haha.. jsut that i have def grown out of that lil nut shell i used to be in. Jc1 passed by like a bullet train. Everything just came into an end while I was still groping my way through the realm of darkness. Yea... indeed, last yr was quite a tormentful one. Well, i din struggle through any natural disaster or wad.. but the 'catastrophes' that I went through were normal and yet, v. distressing to me. But I am glad i pulled through and managed to find my way out of the thick and dark clouds. It was not easy at all. yea.. there is alweez a silver lining among the dark clouds. How true is tat? I really wonder. Well, I just hope this year will be v. smooth sailing for me and of course, everyone! Trainings have been tough. I surely get muscle aches the next day after every training. I don't really think im becoming fitter. haha. Instead, im jsut exhausting myself to the core almost everyday. Im drained totally... and it is only Jan! =/ I must hold on to my faith, i know i have to. I don't believe in any God or wad not.. I really totally depend on my own lil faith. I have struggled through all these years with my lil faith.. im sure my lil faith still lives. I know that this year is gonna be a tough one too.. and perhaps, the toughest of all i have been through. But after tat, Im sure i will get to see the rainbow and the sun! =)
bTw.. I went back to NH on fri... it was a great feeling talking to the some teachers. Really... NH is so windy lar!! not like NJ.. SO hOT and STUffy! =/ hahax. I talked to Mrs Chang for quite a while... She is still so nice and frenly!! She asked how was I and whether I have oredi left behind tat past. Yea.. Im sure i have done it! Ya... I did pine for him sometimes in the course of last yr.. but now.. im sure im totally ok with it. Ya. he has got himself a new gf since dnnoe how mnany months ago.. I felt so cheated. I cried. i complained. I whined. My eyes went swollen so many times becos of him. I was foolish I think. haha. V.V.V. foolish. but now thinking about it, after the abrupt end to the relationship, I really learnt a lot. Cherish whatever that is ahead of u! Never look back at the bad past! I suddenly felt that being in a relationship was a bad choice. I missed out many things I guess... that left me in subtle regrets for life. But well.. Im sure I wont repeat the same mistakes again. It is toooooo costly.
So now... my 2oo6 resolution is to make everyone around me a happy person, and of course, to do well academically to make whoever who is concern about me Proud! Im sure I can do it=)) Jia you!
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