Tuesday, October 04, 2005
promos is almost over. left with german essay paper. siGhz. so far.. i screwed up everything. ha. history repeated itself again. sIghz. There is a hiGh chance that i will get retained. =( I just feel that nJ papers are SO hard to scoRe. not to say score.. its a matter of fail or pass. =( sighz. to thInk i woRked so much.. and going to library to mug during breaks and sometimes even during lunch. sighz. o well... if i am meant to be promoted... i will be promoted.. if not.. just let it ba. Life is getting so stressful now. the pace is so fast to catch up. =( Many times i teared. Silent cries within me. I am totally digusted by myself, honestly speaking. wHy can't i thInk properly during exams? Its not the first time i sit for major exams.. but why? Did i become more stupid? Maybe... i am sure my memory is betraying me. siGhzx. my hOpes are all kinda dashed oredi. =(( this morning.. i was thinking to myself.. if i really REALLY get retained... how will the next batch of j1s think of me? thoUghts just kept on streaming in during assembly. i almost broke down during assmebly. imagine u urself standing in the midst of crowd that u have no idea who they are.. and imagine studying with ppl who are younger den u by a yr... sighzz.. tat s a torment to go thru.... sIghZ. how about my frenz? i will surely miss them... A LOT. how about next yr's graduation nITe? I wanne have fun with my ruggers mates! I wanne see everyone dressing up to their best! sIghz.. guess all this won't come true anymore. everything is gone. uRghs. =( but again.. I really think tat the world is coming to an end. There are hurricanes hitting countries causing so many casualties... there are bomB succiders spreading across the world.. bombing so many cities. Now there is dengue in singapore, avian flu becoming pandemic.. URgh.. so much so much! sometimes i really wonder... WHEN will the world come to an end.. it seems so cloSe.. we should all just enjoy the life we want to have and stop putting certificate as the first priority. Guess this is Singapore's society. wad will u do before the day comes to an end? ha... if i know tat its nearing.. i wont give a damn to promos at all... for sure. =) Promos... is jsut an exam tat test u whether u are SMART enough to be an nJcian or not.. hA. nTh else. it doesn make anyone happy. well well well.. good luck to thoSe who are still in the midst of exams...
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