Sunday, October 23, 2005
Time for a really lOng entry! beware.. Dun get bOred to deaTh. =P
arghs... firstly, I must mention that I haven't been feeling good these few days... All becoz of my promo results and smth else.. ( cant mention the smth else) I m kinda disappointed in myself coz I know i have already tried my best and yet I still need to drop a subject. SigHz. Bad yr i guess. ( lOls.. pushing the blame again... =P) Okie... I was really sad lar.. i cried like twice. but its all over! there is nth to do except getting moving and start a better chapter NEXT yr... ( i hOpe so.. )STUPID CHEM! I swear Im going to conquer you by the end of this coming lOng holiday! Persevere, persevere... PERSEVERE!
But i must say that I changed a lot this yr. as in, now im much more concious of wads happening arnd me and Im putting in effort to make everyone happy! I feel a sense of satisfication when I make someone happy, especially someone like my grandpa and mom. =)) they rock my life. I mean, they are the people who are really important in my life. Without them, I would not have been ME today. I really like my grandpa. WHy? firstly, i tink he really she ji wei ren and he is so loving towards everyone! I heard of his childhood stories before and I really admire him a lot a lot a lot... Hope i will grow up to be like him... he is still hale and hearty, hope that he will have many years to enjoy his life. im glad that everything is fine now... =) If not, my heart will really stop functioning man. Im not v. happy that he din get into the nomination for the Best Senior Citizen of the year.. but o well, nvm, next yr shall try again... teehee.. He is really worth the award bUt he will alweez be the best senior citizen in my heart. =))god bless him.
I was feeling really down these few days as i feel that i disappoint everyone who knows me. sighz. horrible results. If only im smarter... arghss.. I just suddenly felt that my future is bleak, like everything is charred. =( people may think tat im sad becoz my parents scolded me or wad.. they din... I jsut felt tat i disappointed them SO many times this yr. =( Maybe its fate that I have to drop a subject. Hope its a blessing in disguise. now tat my planned future is kinda ruined, i shall start to tink of which other routes can I embark on.. i really dun want to be a useless person.. =(
oh yah.. ytd had touch oasis at SRC. We din do as badly as we expected ourselves too... so it wasn't that bad. haha.. lOls.. we had a lot of fun teasing coacH lor! lOls.. So sHUang! heee.. no lar.. just kidding.. haha.. but coach is really GOOD man.. in touch rugby.. omg lar.. the moment she entered the field, she tried! my idol man! So coOl lar! So fasT! so swift!
oKie.. so i was at padang from morning till bout three. So u can imagine how sun burnt i am AGAIN. arghs. But i did apply sunblOck k. so after we went to Thai Express.. hmm.. I ate some tom yam seafood glass noodles.. not bad lar.. but i have tasted better ones before. hehZ... at the end of it... yuqi dared me to eat a spoonful of those type of cut chilli. so yucky lar.. it was taken from a bowl of 'dunnoe' wad' mixture of soup lOr.. so disgusting lar! =(( After much delay, i din eat lar... though ANGELA and 'accomplice' are so intimidating.... and telling me tat they will treat me seven scoops of yamI yoghurt if i dared. =,=... and small said she'd supply me with ONE whole yr of dessert.. lOls... So in the end, yuqi said dat if i drank up fel's green curry, she will buy me a scoop of yami. Angela said she will buy me a scoop too... so i DRANK. cant believe it laR... oMg... haha... it tasted tooo salty.... =// for me lar.. but not at spicy lar.. jsut tat the coconut milk smell quite strong... and its really concentrated. lOls... I almsot finished the whole thing lar.. den small finished up the last few mouthfuls... =.=... den yuqi angela said tat it is not counted... bOo~ EEYEr... there goes my TWO scoops of yAMi! aRghs. hahaz... hope i dun get any stomach working disorder.. lOls...
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Time for a really lOng entry! beware.. Dun get bOred to deaTh. =P
arghs... firstly, I must mention that I haven't been feeling good these few days... All becoz of my promo results and smth else.. ( cant mention the smth else) I m kinda disappointed in myself coz I know i have already tried my best and yet I still need to drop a subject. SigHz. Bad yr i guess. ( lOls.. pushing the blame again... =P) Okie... I was really sad lar.. i cried like twice. but its all over! there is nth to do except getting moving and start a better chapter NEXT yr... ( i hOpe so.. )STUPID CHEM! I swear Im going to conquer you by the end of this coming lOng holiday! Persevere, persevere... PERSEVERE!
But i must say that I changed a lot this yr. as in, now im much more concious of wads happening arnd me and Im putting in effort to make everyone happy! I feel a sense of satisfication when I make someone happy, especially someone like my grandpa and mom. =)) they rock my life. I mean, they are the people who are really important in my life. Without them, I would not have been ME today. I really like my grandpa. WHy? firstly, i tink he really she ji wei ren and he is so loving towards everyone! I heard of his childhood stories before and I really admire him a lot a lot a lot... Hope i will grow up to be like him... he is still hale and hearty, hope that he will have many years to enjoy his life. im glad that everything is fine now... =) If not, my heart will really stop functioning man. Im not v. happy that he din get into the nomination for the Best Senior Citizen of the year.. but o well, nvm, next yr shall try again... teehee.. He is really worth the award bUt he will alweez be the best senior citizen in my heart. =))god bless him.
I was feeling really down these few days as i feel that i disappoint everyone who knows me. sighz. horrible results. If only im smarter... arghss.. I just suddenly felt that my future is bleak, like everything is charred. =( people may think tat im sad becoz my parents scolded me or wad.. they din... I jsut felt tat i disappointed them SO many times this yr. =( Maybe its fate that I have to drop a subject. Hope its a blessing in disguise. now tat my planned future is kinda ruined, i shall start to tink of which other routes can I embark on.. i really dun want to be a useless person.. =(
oh yah.. ytd had touch oasis at SRC. We din do as badly as we expected ourselves too... so it wasn't that bad. haha.. lOls.. we had a lot of fun teasing coacH lor! lOls.. So sHUang! heee.. no lar.. just kidding.. haha.. but coach is really GOOD man.. in touch rugby.. omg lar.. the moment she entered the field, she tried! my idol man! So coOl lar! So fasT! so swift!
oKie.. so i was at padang from morning till bout three. So u can imagine how sun burnt i am AGAIN. arghs. But i did apply sunblOck k. so after we went to Thai Express.. hmm.. I ate some tom yam seafood glass noodles.. not bad lar.. but i have tasted better ones before. hehZ... at the end of it... yuqi dared me to eat a spoonful of those type of cut chilli. so yucky lar.. it was taken from a bowl of 'dunnoe' wad' mixture of soup lOr.. so disgusting lar! =(( After much delay, i din eat lar... though ANGELA and 'accomplice' are so intimidating.... and telling me tat they will treat me seven scoops of yamI yoghurt if i dared. =,=... and small said she'd supply me with ONE whole yr of dessert.. lOls... So in the end, yuqi said dat if i drank up fel's green curry, she will buy me a scoop of yami. Angela said she will buy me a scoop too... so i DRANK. cant believe it laR... oMg... haha... it tasted tooo salty.... =// for me lar.. but not at spicy lar.. jsut tat the coconut milk smell quite strong... and its really concentrated. lOls... I almsot finished the whole thing lar.. den small finished up the last few mouthfuls... =.=... den yuqi angela said tat it is not counted... bOo~ EEYEr... there goes my TWO scoops of yAMi! aRghs. hahaz... hope i dun get any stomach working disorder.. lOls...
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Time for a really lOng entry! beware.. Dun get bOred to deaTh. =P
arghs... firstly, I must mention that I haven't been feeling good these few days... All becoz of my promo results and smth else.. ( cant mention the smth else) I m kinda disappointed in myself coz I know i have already tried my best and yet I still need to drop a subject. SigHz. Bad yr i guess. ( lOls.. pushing the blame again... =P) Okie... I was really sad lar.. i cried like twice. but its all over! there is nth to do except getting moving and start a better chapter NEXT yr... ( i hOpe so.. )STUPID CHEM! I swear Im going to conquer you by the end of this coming lOng holiday! Persevere, persevere... PERSEVERE!
But i must say that I changed a lot this yr. as in, now im much more concious of wads happening arnd me and Im putting in effort to make everyone happy! I feel a sense of satisfication when I make someone happy, especially someone like my grandpa and mom. =)) they rock my life. I mean, they are the people who are really important in my life. Without them, I would not have been ME today. I really like my grandpa. WHy? firstly, i tink he really she ji wei ren and he is so loving towards everyone! I heard of his childhood stories before and I really admire him a lot a lot a lot... Hope i will grow up to be like him... he is still hale and hearty, hope that he will have many years to enjoy his life. im glad that everything is fine now... =) If not, my heart will really stop functioning man. Im not v. happy that he din get into the nomination for the Best Senior Citizen of the year.. but o well, nvm, next yr shall try again... teehee.. He is really worth the award bUt he will alweez be the best senior citizen in my heart. =))god bless him.
I was feeling really down these few days as i feel that i disappoint everyone who knows me. sighz. horrible results. If only im smarter... arghss.. I just suddenly felt that my future is bleak, like everything is charred. =( people may think tat im sad becoz my parents scolded me or wad.. they din... I jsut felt tat i disappointed them SO many times this yr. =( Maybe its fate that I have to drop a subject. Hope its a blessing in disguise. now tat my planned future is kinda ruined, i shall start thinking on wad i can do in the future. haha.. which route should i venture... i wonder... hmm...
oh ya.. ytd we had touch rug oasis at SRC. okIe lar.. we played better den we expected to so i guess its okie even if we din win anything. =) and yar.. sun burnt once again. arghs. damn horrible. den guess wad.. after went to Thai express to have our super late lunch at bout 4? ha. I ate tom yam seafood glass noodles... not bad lar.. the soup is nice.. but i have tasted better ones before. hee.. oH ya... some of the ruggers who went forced me to eat a spoOnfuL of chILLi from a bOwl of 'dunnoe-wad' soUp. they mixed everything togehter lar! so disgusting lor! OMg... small was saying she will supply me wiht one whole yr of dessert if i ate that spoonful of stuffs.. =.=.. and yuqi, angela said tat they will buy me SEVEN scoops of Yami yoghurt... =.=... I dun realyl believe lor.. they alweez bluff me de.. so in the end i din eat.. after much delay. lOlS.. den yuqi asked me to drink up fel's curry.. hM.. Quite a lot lOr! so concentrated somemore.. oMg lar.. I drank SO MUCH lar.. den left a bit... small finsihed up... =.=... den my two scoops of Yami yoghurt flew away... BOo! kNew it lOr.. they alweez cheat me de. HAHA... they even directed the bill to ME lar. 82 BUCKS lar... ...omg lar.. after drinking SO mcuh CURRY... my mouth was like... exploding.. and felt DAMN hot lar.. like burning like tat.. haha... imagine being put in an oven.. yah.. tats how it feels like. lols. horrible hor? swear i will distand myself from curry for at least a month. HAHA.. phobiA liao.. oh yah.. the curry is GREEN in colour somemore. haha... ( bet u guys must be... OMG too) hahaz..
aiya.. tired oredi.. today woKe up at 615 to go market with my grandpa... shall go take a rest now... falling sick .. aRGhss..
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
I shOuld stop sighing! uRGhs. Sighing all day long wont help to ease any problem! UrghS...
got diarrhea this morning
din go for training
uRgh
feel so bAd
sigh
missed out so many things again
python? omg
new move man
I m lost
joan
wake up n jia you
siGh
i feel so stupid lar. I know i shud not worry about my results but its just so frustrating. I really REALLY feel like dying. I want to escape from this hectic life. Not only hectic but also stressfuL life. sighS.I want to get promoted with 4 suBs... pls tell me tat i will get promoted with four subs... siGhzz.. Onli then can I focus on other things in my life... sIGhzz.. i hate promOs... I am beginning to hate majoR exams. Am i becoming really stupid? can't think anymoRe?
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Monday, October 10, 2005
uRghX. I feel sick.. =((( sighzxx.. is my end coming soon...? hMMm.. fear is engulfing me!!! heLp! =//
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joan u think too much la!
Sunday, October 09, 2005
haha.. stupid angela wants me to bLog. so here am I... blOgging.. =.=.... hM.. so wad happened ytd? HAHA... ruggers had steambOat together!=)))))))) happy happy! loLs. it was so fun lar. lIke one big family having dinner together in a cosy living space.. =) the gathering was great! AS USUAL... poOr me was being shOOt at so many times again. lols.. its alweez like tat. HAHA... but nvm... add spices into my life yea. haha... oKie.. so we ate.. and ate.. and ate.. very healthy i can say. hahA.. and yuqi was like saying... give joan da whole plate of vege.. she lOVes vege.. =.- lols. FINE! HAHAH.. i conquer the WORLD of VEGE! lOlS. haha. damn funny lar.. den after dinner... we all sat down to watch x files. lOls. WOAH.. before tat ... ANGELA, ong, hui yi, wy, fel.. they were playing some card game.. bridge i tink.. OMG.. ANGELA arH.. your laughter dAMn scarY lar! lOLSS. So loUd! haha.. like thunder laR! hahahas.. learn to control lar! lOlss... scare all the small kids out there arh. hahazx... haha... o ya.. thanKs to wei Wei... i kNocked my head against the chair like TWICE. =.=... lame sia. haha.. kk.. so we sat down and watched tV. lOls. the first time in dunnoe how many months i sat down to watch a channel eight show at nine. lols. it was kinda interesting thOugh. ahahah.. everyone was really enjoying themselves man... but its so heart warming to have everyone sitted together watching the show. =))) great great feeling! YEA! hAHAHA... =)))) hAHA... den after tat .. we plAyed zong ji mi ma. HAHA... oMg.. somebody mixed the sparkling juice, coke, soUp , the ingrediants together lar.. PLUS chILLI sauce.. yUCks. chilLi sauce is YUCKS man.. oMg. haah... it lOoks kinda disgusting when the thing is being mixed lar..BUT lucky me never get any chance to drink and eat tat yucky 'flUid'. lols.. hahah.. it was really fun lar.. HAHA... aiYa.. ytd was really fun. lOls.. fun + fun + fUn! oh yah.. jing and hui's cookies are SUPER DUPER FUNKERLICIOUS TASTY lar! haha... so nICe! oMG... haHAhaha... eat everyday also wont be sick of tat taste lar! lols. Im so happy dat our team is so bonded.. =)) everyone gets along well with each other.. nobody ostracises anyone.. ( okIe.. maybe everyone shoOt me MOST of the times.. But.. haha.. that is not being ostracised i guess.) lOls.. haha.. hard to find a team dat bonds really well lar. haha... so after tat a few of us stayed over at yuqi s house. haha.. fun ... BUT.. i was like.. half asleep oreid.. =.- haha.. damn tired lar... den we played caRd games... watched some boring korean movie... den hmm... talked? hahaZX... yah lor.. guess everyone was really tired le.. hahaz.. so five of us... yuqi, ANGELA, qiying, small and i squeezed and slpt togehter in yuqi's room. HAHA.. cosy yea. loLs.. but kinda cold lar. hahZ... well..... aiya.. tmr den i continue to blOg.. damn tired oreid.. HAHAHA,....
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
hMm. thOugh my promos soRt of ended oredi.. I was still brooding over my chem paper for a night. but today.. guess im feeling better oredi. Well well well... St, i tink u are right. results aren't everything. =) act i feel so too.. one juX has to be happy with wadever one does. Wad matters is tat one's life is fulfilling enough before it ends. Somebody may die earlier den others.. but if tat person has got a great life before, im sure the person wont die with any regrets. Often, I guess many people died with regrets. They never get to go to the places they want to go.. they never get to bask in the warmth of love.. they never get to achieve their goals in life.. Well... i guess wad i really need now is a long break before any mugging starts again. jC life. HA. act not really lar... Im glad that I went to nJ. Really... heartfelt thanks to that something that made me choose nJ instead of staying in aC. I have got great teachers like Mr lOw Kwee Peng, Miss Chua etc... For my math teacher, I wanne thank him for being patient enough with me... I think I am a big bUlk to teach lar... I am really slow at catching concepts.. haha... To mR Adrian Low, though you are a really weird teacher with unpredictable temper, having mood swings at times, but I am glad that u have been my math teacher for this yr.. I guess you are a good teacher in a way. =) Not to forget, I am REALLLLLYY glad to have a bUNch of great pals in nJ. Its really from the bottom of my heart. I really had a whole lot of fun training with you guys.... my dear rugger mates! =)) though sometimes its kinda frustrating on the field... Im glad tat all of us pulled through everyting together. You gUys really cared a lot for me. I really feel damn heartwarming. Im glad that whenever I m feeling down, there are alweez ppl like you standing with me. To my class... frankly speaking, at first i thot tat our class is kinda boring... and there are like not much activities going on. I thot tat almost everyone is a mugger.. oKie... well.. guess we all jsut have to mug in Jc. Almsot thruout the whole two yrs. But I can say confidently that this class is not as bad as i have thought. Everyone is special in his or her own way... Everyone can be fun to be with too. I am thankful for all the lame jOkes the three guys in our class cracked. haha.. though they are not really funny at times, they managed to keep us awake during lessonss... hohoho. s7A is a small class, in fact, i think its the smallest one in nJ.. bUt everyone in this class is smart ( except me) lOls. Really... they are All really smart... Really feel like kowtowing to them man.. hahaz... hMm.. If i get retained, I wont forget all the memories we all had together... Even if i get retained, let it be, i won't complain or moan, i will just be a retainee who will show the world that even a retainee can get really good results at A levels. Now im beginning to admire retainees. As in.. imagine.. the obstacles they have to overcome when they have to face different faces for another yr in jC life.. while their frenz who are oredi j2s are going to graduate soon. Who will want to have this feeling? But i guess sometimes, no matter how hard a person works, the person may not sow as much. Tats wad i have learnt from all these yrs. Life gets so stressed up till ppl like us even forget when is Children's day. I only realised it when I saw my siblings watching some tv programms on Children's day special. ha. it has been quite a bad yr for me i guess.. just tat this yr... i faced so many ups and downs. It has been a torment to go thru everything. Life is just like a rollercoaster... buT i never liked to be on a rollercoaster. its thrilling in a way.. but sometimes, it jsut makes one feel droggy and wad not.
I agree with this fact that ppl like us do miss out a lot in life. Ppl like us yearn for everything in the world. We want the newest mp3, we want to eat nice food.. etc etc etc.. the list goes on and on. maybe its just another generalisation.. but don't u tink tat it portraits this society? We are often so overcome by materialism, till we forget that the simplest things in life can make one happy. Look at children who are HIV positive, they are suffering everyday and yet they are really happy when they have something to eat or play with. it can be a simple chocolate that make them happy. it can be just a simple doll. They are contented. In the midst of struggling to live for the 'tomorrow' they all want, they are still happy. Perhaps their idea of Utopian is really very different. when they see people visiting them, there is only one word tat can describe them. happy! yep. being happy is the best i guess.. nTh can pUt one down if one wants to be a happy person. Life is too short to worry away. We should all cherish every moment in life. Memories are meant to be kept close to the heart and not to be forgotten. =)) Be happy everyone! Im trying my best to ba happy too!
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Tuesday, October 04, 2005
promos is almost over. left with german essay paper. siGhz. so far.. i screwed up everything. ha. history repeated itself again. sIghz. There is a hiGh chance that i will get retained. =( I just feel that nJ papers are SO hard to scoRe. not to say score.. its a matter of fail or pass. =( sighz. to thInk i woRked so much.. and going to library to mug during breaks and sometimes even during lunch. sighz. o well... if i am meant to be promoted... i will be promoted.. if not.. just let it ba. Life is getting so stressful now. the pace is so fast to catch up. =( Many times i teared. Silent cries within me. I am totally digusted by myself, honestly speaking. wHy can't i thInk properly during exams? Its not the first time i sit for major exams.. but why? Did i become more stupid? Maybe... i am sure my memory is betraying me. siGhzx. my hOpes are all kinda dashed oredi. =(( this morning.. i was thinking to myself.. if i really REALLY get retained... how will the next batch of j1s think of me? thoUghts just kept on streaming in during assembly. i almost broke down during assmebly. imagine u urself standing in the midst of crowd that u have no idea who they are.. and imagine studying with ppl who are younger den u by a yr... sighzz.. tat s a torment to go thru.... sIghZ. how about my frenz? i will surely miss them... A LOT. how about next yr's graduation nITe? I wanne have fun with my ruggers mates! I wanne see everyone dressing up to their best! sIghz.. guess all this won't come true anymore. everything is gone. uRghs. =( but again.. I really think tat the world is coming to an end. There are hurricanes hitting countries causing so many casualties... there are bomB succiders spreading across the world.. bombing so many cities. Now there is dengue in singapore, avian flu becoming pandemic.. URgh.. so much so much! sometimes i really wonder... WHEN will the world come to an end.. it seems so cloSe.. we should all just enjoy the life we want to have and stop putting certificate as the first priority. Guess this is Singapore's society. wad will u do before the day comes to an end? ha... if i know tat its nearing.. i wont give a damn to promos at all... for sure. =) Promos... is jsut an exam tat test u whether u are SMART enough to be an nJcian or not.. hA. nTh else. it doesn make anyone happy. well well well.. good luck to thoSe who are still in the midst of exams...
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
Good luck to everyone for pRomos! hOpe everyone gets promoted! =) sIGHZ. i Hope i get promoted.. uRgh...... PLSSS.. i BEg yOU.. let me get promoted.. I woRked really hard oredi.. til the extent of dYing... PLSSS....
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