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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Nj is not bad a jC. yay! I miss AC thoUgh. the fuN we had and the laughter we shared in lecture theatres and classrooms. hOo. Gone were the days but nevertheless, I made many friends. Tats a blessing, aint it?

o well.. sad things do jut out of life so suddenly. You thought that u can forget bOut that person buT actually, you cant. Its as hard as counting the number of raindrops that fall during a shower. Forgeting someone you gave ur heart too once is not easy at all. Im sure every normal person feels that.

Long were you gone
yOU disappeared from my sight
and hid away from my heart
The cut on my heart is too deep
Time heals all wounds
but is my wound going to heal?
Lost of blood in excess
Cried and whined and pinned
What's more for me in life?
Hope that i can leave behind the cuts
But is that ever possible?
I have to even if i cant.
choICes are limited
or even void
I can only let go of the dream...

I know i can write bout this stuffs coz he no longer reads my blog i guess. (im shO smARt~)o well.. sometimes jsut gotta put things down as it need to be. no pOint holding on to an empty dream. A dream has to have some substance before it is ever called a dream. Dreams are meant to create some hope but alas, everything is smashed against the wall and back to the bottom. i will never forget the good oLd days. and i will never forget the numbers dat i usually dial and msG to. YupS thiNGs aRe over.. But im gotta be strong no matter wad.. riTEZ?

Joan

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9:40 PM

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alamak..joan..

jia you..

get over it..

By feL, at 10:49 PM

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Thursday, March 17, 2005

爱情是让人渴望的。心里的悲伤，心里的空虚，有谁能够了解呢？事过境迁，我也知道，但我就是放不开。
我们的爱已不存在，但我仍想念着你。美丽的回忆不断涌进我的怀里，能让我找回旧梦。我们的梦已随着岁月渐渐的淡化，而如今它已失去了方向。原来所有的承诺只不过是海市蜃楼，只是过眼烟云罢了。你就象美丽的梦离开了我，抛弃了我，只剩下我一个泪人默默地哭泣。豆大般的眼泪就象滂沱大雨蔌蔌地从眼框流了出来，的确叫人不能自己。

恋爱的滋味是难以形容的。俩人在一起总是快快乐乐，甜甜蜜蜜，无拘无束的。谁知你的踪影一从我的视线消失，我就突然间感到无比的茫然，不知何去何从。。。我多么的想回到过去，试着让故事继续，但是你说你累了，不想再走下去。我恨透了自己，希望能弥补过去，但始终无能为力。你知道我有多么无助吗？曾经是你的天使的我狠狠地刺你一刀，使你憔悴的心流血。我懊悔不已，但无论我做什么都已没用了。心隐隐作痛，你又何曾知道我是那么的伤心欲绝？

我为什么感到那么地悲伤呢？我也在寻找答案。在熙熙攘攘的人流中，很多次我都失去了方向。有些人和我岔肩而过，有些人却把脚印留遍了我的整个世界。一旦那脚印不再属于我，我便不知所措，不好的滋味纷纷涌上心头，鼻子一酸，就不能够脱离泪海。刚才看了《月亮的秘密》，几乎变成了一个泪人。爱，让人不能自拔，也使人迷迷糊糊，也随时把一个人推进深谷里。。。

若我有个机会，我一定不会那么的不懂事，一定会争取每分每秒，去爱我的唯一。
以下是我喜欢的一首抒情歌曲，虽然简单，但我认为它很有意思。

Stay 因為夜太美　寂寞的月亮　需要星星陪
Stay 不管夜多黑　不管天會亮　不去想明天
帶我飛　　遠遠的　到天涯　到海角
浩瀚的　　天際裡　只要有你陪
也許苦　　也許甜　不害怕　不後悔
因為愛　讓我們　　再也分不開　(Just) Stay
Stay　因為夜太美　寂寞的月亮　需要星星陪
Just Stay 就算是不對　就算是沉淪　錯誤也是美

我会坚强地活下去的，请你放心。

Joan

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3:15 PM

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the words are like extremely big

By feL, at 11:09 PM

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Monday, March 14, 2005

lIFe is so full of ups and downs. Life is so unpredictable. For a second, you are basking in happiness. In another second, you are already tilted to the other end---the sorrow and sadness start to overwhelm you like you have never ever experience before. How many sad things will we come face to face in our lives? That is a question that we should not think of anywayz. hahaZ. A life can be short or long. A life can be a happy and yet sad one. How complicating life is!

There is no turning back in life, especially when you have hurt a person and scarred his or her heart... He or she will forever be lost from your veyr own treasure boX. How sad it is. A person can cry for days and nights. And whenever something makes him or her ponder over the past memories, tears cascade out of the sorrowful and teary eyes. . . forever watery and blurred. . . like being veiled forever.

Love creeped up unexpectedly to me.I was taken aback yet glad. Everything is gone now, but I will stay as strong as the grass that never dies despite being trampled on so many times in life. lOVe has been a wonderful thing.. it had been so wonderful and so crystal clear..? It had been so colourful and make me think of the kite that flies in the clear blue sky with the bright and every smiling sun being embedded on it. Kite is a wonderful adornment. It adds colors and life to the sky that looks monotonous. It sways beautifully with the wind and flies higher and higher, whenever parts of the string are being let go. The higher it soars, the more the heart gets thrilled and one gets really delighted... esp to me!

I wanne fly the kite with my loved one.
I wanne walk by the sea with my loved one.. with hands held tightly together.
I wanne have someone who is and will alweez be there for me.
. . .
guess its all noThing but a dream.
sighz.
bUt im gonna cherish every little time i have in my short life.
My life may prolong by a few more years than others or wad.. but it will alweez be a short life.
There are too many things to do in this life.
The things to accomplish are simply too much.. in fact.. uncountable!
I shant be too ambitious. Shall take things at my own stride.
Just hope i will be able to put aside all my troubles and complexed mind to rest at this moment and enjoy life.

...

Joan

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11:16 PM

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