_____im no longer behind u...*

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

After reading kEgan's blog, I suddenly feel that there is a shadow cast on me. It just suddenly make me think of the next embarkment we have to take on and the path looks tedious and unwinding, bringing us to a place that we have no idea at all.

yeap. jC life is starting real soon. how i wish i can hold back time and let sec sch life start all over again. I wish to be with my good buddies and pals always but I know its impossible and somehow, we will be separated into difF jCs and will have a totally different kind of life that the roads we take will never cross one another's.

iTs sad but i guess we just have to face reality. Good frenz, true enough, its hard to find one in this society. Not to mention when we are in Jc. Its gonna be hard. oNly tWo yrs worTh of jC life... hOw on earth will we get to knOw our new frenz well enOugh? the friendship will never be secured. The frenship will jsut be like a sandcastle on a pristine white beach, standing so lonely. onCe it starts to sleet and the wind bellows, everything will be gone. The sandcastle toPples! And u will have to rebuild another sandcastle. i hope mine will be made of bricks, and nOt sand. In JC, I only hoPe to find a few good frenz whom I can really trust and rely on...

hmm. today went to mT alVernia to take my mEdicine. after tat, i went to clementi central to do some shopping stuff. hahaZ. I was supposed to meet ya yun at bout 5 to pass her her book but in the end, I could not wait long and since she would be late, i went home without passing her her book. hahaZ. hmm. walking on the streets alone makes me feel so empty suddenly. My heart seems to be suddenly void of blood, jus like an empty vase. When i was on the bus, I sat at the window and looked at the outside scenery. Everything loOKs so familiar and yet hostile. hahaZ> i dunnoe how to put the strange feeling intO worDs... I passed by MacRitchie Resevoir and memories started to pour into my thoughts. I still remember clearly how crazily i have cheered for all my frenz who were running cross country. hahaZ. and of coz, the time when i ran it myself, with the blaring hot sun above me.. I would never forget how tiring it was. I thiNk i cheered for all the peoPLe who I know when i was standing around the finishing line. hahaZ.

hmm.. this yr had been a hectic one. So much work to do and of coz, all of them have been done. So many events took place too and I could recall how exhausted I felt. Yeah. Its a sad thing tat all these have to end. Next yr will be the start of another whole new cycle... This yr.. indeed, many things happened. hahahaz. The most unexpected thing is I got myself a bF. hahaZ. I tot I will onli meet one in Jc or unI. heeeX. bUt no regrets anywayz. hE is so 'cherishAble'! hehez. yuPz. and i also get to know more ppL this yr too. greaT achiEvement!

hmmM. tmR goiNg koREa liaoz. toNite and tmr afternoon gonna finish writing all the x mas cards. hahaZ. [jiA you..to myself. haha] weLL, beloW will be my last woRds... b4 i go to korea. hahaZ

~takE care everyoNe! heeez. Have a haPPy hOls! thOugh I may nOt be uR very good or close or best fren, I hope u will have a nice day everyday! enJoy life! doN find it sucky, coz u are learning new things everyday.. if u are observant enuf. I do get lOts of enlightment from observing... heeeZ. its up to U urself to decide on whether u want to be happy or not. If u want to be happy, noBody can make u unhappy. So... look on the positive side of lifE k? dOn moan and groan. iTs not good for ur boDy. hehez. stAy happY and cheerful!!!!! ~

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

5:56 PM

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2 Comments:

"So... look on the positive side of lifE k? dOn moan and groan. iTs not good for ur boDy."

tell that to yourself okay?

*hugs*

think it's just another phase of life.. things change all the time. and when we look back, we'll learn to appreciate. that's the beauty of life. (:

don't think too much and enjoy yourself! cheer up!

By feL, at 9:43 PM

hey gal.. u wan me to comment n not tag rite.. hmmz.. here goes! firstly... after reading ur blog.. lotz of feelings rush back into my mind again.. how we were running n cheering for our frenz... realli miss the times.. next yr we all go back n run ok!?haa.. dun feel sad la.. go jc rite.. though onli 2 yrs.. but can widen ur circle of frenz, know more ppl n such ma...surely u will find a good fren, trustworthy n all.. but hey! dun 4get the one that u found a few yrz back..haha.. yes! tokin bout me!!hahaha.. ;) aniwae.. coz jc onli 2 yrz.. so the bond mae not be as strong.. tatz y .. treasure ur sec sch frenz.. coz they will most lykely be the ones closest to u! .. to make the long story short.. TREASURE ME...ha... lalalala

By =| mAriE |=, at 10:44 PM