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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

phEw.. chEm and pHy prac.. have been quite a breeze for me I think. CheCked ans with mrS chang and sOme other freNZ, my values are almost there. -heave a sigh of relief- hmMMm.hOpe the other papers will be a breeze for me too. hehez. starting to gain sOme confidence in the upcoming BIG exam--- O levels. hahaz.I am sure I will dO betTer den pRElims. everyOne. jia yOU woR! hehez

hmm.. Today's pHy prac.. actually it was a bit laborious and quite tricky. I am quite pissed by qn one, which we had to balance a stubborn ruler that doesn't seem to be relentless.woAh. so in the end, I spenT bOut 10 mIns trying to balance that ruler and at the same time, i kePT lOoking at the cLock---i was really worried that i would not have enOugh tiMe man. hahaZ. in the end, i gave up. i juMped to methoD two. woah. tat was definitely mUch easier man.. bUT i had somE technical pRoblems wiTh the retort stAnd. i was sweating really profusely when i was doIng this exp. hehez. The last part of this exp... we had it for oUr preliMs. luCky uS. hehz. hmm. foR the second part of tHe wHole pract, it was qUite oKie for me i Guess. I had onlY onE confusion. daT is shud i use combined resistance or not. hahaz. i was in deep thOughts den, becoZ the qn said.. 'use the resistors SINGLY'. I tot can onli use one resistor at One time. hahaz. in the end, instead of probing mySelf further and waSting time, i rose up my hand. weLL, tat waS futile.. Mr Pandian came but all he said was.. 'lOok at the qn carefully.. it is all written in it..'hahahaZ.. anyWAyz... thanz gOd, in the end i still foLlowed wad my mind told me to. I used combined resistance. hahaz. phEW... luckily its correct. =)

hmmM.. goOd luCk everyoNe! =) oMg, cant wait for Os to end. siGhz. 20 +++ moRE days to go.. hahaz. everyone jIa you k? hehez. I wanne play badminton, play bball, go shOppinG,go flY kiTe, go swimming.. and START LOSING WEIGHT man... hahahZ. getting too fat liaoz.. mUst try to shed weight.. if Not.. O.O i will really turn inTo a biG fat sOw. hahaz.

after Os, everyone will be so stress-free. everyone will be enJoying themselves and a wHOle new cycle wiLl start again. -SaD- everyOne has to adapt to nEw environment again and to make new freNz. everything is so new again... and of coz, strange. cant beAr leave my goOd frenz in NH. -sObs sOBs- well, guEss everyone just has to learn to be accustomed to changes. I Hope i can.

jia you everyone~!!!

Joan

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5:16 PM

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cant wait for Os to be over too.. haha.. jiayou ...~

By Seow Ting, at 5:44 PM

jiayou!...! wEE!

By Anonymous, at 9:27 PM

sian arh. i was distracted by the "singly". i asked the invigilator she asked me to read carefully. darn. i thought that was a useless suggestion. and i still didn't catch the following sentence. didn't use combination. hah. i'm flunking it man.

By feL, at 3:20 PM

heyhey.. yeah..cant wait for it to be over..lala..good luck!

By =| mAriE |=, at 9:47 PM

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Sunday, October 17, 2004

sorry to thOse whom i have offended lately.. sorry. hmm.. everyone.. good luck for ur Os!
jia you!

Joan

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4:56 PM

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don't apologise if you didn't mean it.

By feL, at 7:42 PM

as in, don't apologise if you didn't mean to offend that person. if you get what i mean.

By feL, at 7:43 PM

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Sunday, October 03, 2004

I am nOw all aspired to do well in the Os. When I was packing my stuffs ytd, I chanced upon a piece of reading material that was given to us from Mrs Howard. I am glad that I had the chance to read it ytd. The pages of woRds may switch one off and make one reluctantly pick up the material to read. i truly enjOyed myself when I was reading the stories and things in life.

[No matter how daunting or overwhelming your circumstances may seem, you truly can turn things around. you can turn dreams into reality. How? By tapping into pOwer that's inside of you righT nOw. This pOwer within yOu can change anythIng in yOUr life literally in a matter of mOmEnts. ALL YOU MUST DO IS UNLEASH IT!]

to mYself and freNz whO have lOst faith in theiR preLims:
"We can wake up this power and bring our dreams back to life, starting today."
"Your past does not equal your future!"
"Personal power means being persistent in taking actions: Everytime you do something, you learn from it, and you find a way to do it better next time."
"No problem is permanent. No pRoblem affects my entire life. This too shall pass if I continue to take massive, positive, constructive action."
"No person, no disappointment was worth committing suicide over. Life is always worth living. There's always something to be grateful for."
---- Anthony RObbIns

yeapZ. I was totally awakened by all these. I have decided to reach my goAl of achieving As in the Os. I AM going to conquer my WoES once again in a better way and oF coZ to Work SMART. Maybe I have been working hard buT noT in a smArt way. yea.. I will continue to try. Continuous tries will not make me collapse. Let this prelim be my setback but I am going to tackle the problems within me. I am going to get rid of my nervousness and be as cool as a cucumber when I walk into the exam hall. All these are easier said than done but I am going to do it! I will make it! LessOns are meant to be learnt and not meant to kill anybOdy. LifE is shOrt but i belieVe it will be sweet too. gonna believe in myself and work hard at my weaknesses.i have forgotten totally bOut prelIms. hahaZ. Had put it miles away behind my head. GonNa get charged up and carry on with thiS joUrney. This is the path i have chosen. It has many obstacles and ordeals but I am not going to turn back. I will overwhelm them and defeat them! Os... HERE I COME!

p.S: There are no failures in life. So if you tink u are one, pls be like me, think that you are really great in ur own way and believe that you can make it! If you are unsure of urself, go and read the reading material written by Anthony Robbins that was given to us in May[aft mid yr exams]. =)

Joan

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8:28 AM

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yay! good for you joan. glad that you've seen the truth - that you rock and can do it! hehe...wo hui zhi chi ni de!!!! JIA YOU!

By zx, at 8:49 AM

ha... jiayou! im behind u!

love, pigpig

By Anonymous, at 11:33 AM

yes.. confidence is important when taking exams.. believe in yourself.. be exam-smart and learn things by effective study methods! jiayouuuuuuuuuuuuu!

By Seow Ting, at 2:25 PM

that's the spirit!

By Anonymous, at 5:05 PM

that's the spirit!

By Anonymous, at 5:05 PM

that's the spirit!

By Anonymous, at 5:05 PM

that's the spirit!

By Anonymous, at 5:05 PM

LOLs. quanming nothing to do siaZ. press so many times. (: ni xiang kai jiu hao. so many pple around me sad, you cannot be sad k? i'm like.. quite affected by them le, you sad also i'll be much more affected k? *hugs* jia you girL.

By feL, at 8:57 PM

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Saturday, October 02, 2004

::yTd::
Ytd i just felt like killing myself with a knife, or even juMping down from a tall building. I feLt so much like a coward ytd, coz i cant face reality tat well. I cant believe tat i cried for two hoUrs plus... there was a 'free flow' of tears. I cant stop them from gushing them out of my eyes. My eyes were really tired and painful but i just couldn't stop crying. My heart literally shriveled and shattered into pieces upon knowing that i failed my piano practical grade 8 exam. The news came too sudden and came as a shock. I tot i will pass. This news pierced right through my heart that has already been torn apart so many times. Exam results and stuffs have really made me almost lost my heart. The passion I had for studies dwindled and I felt that I am now groping my way in pitch darkness. I cant see any direction and felt so lost. My hardwork.. has not been paid off.

this caused me to be half-hearted. maYbe I din put enough effort.. or maYbe i just did not concentrate well enough. i tried my best in anything i do but the end result seems to cover up all my efforts and hardwork. I 'slogged' for the best. I studied and revised earlier than many other people and yet my results does not show anything. ppl may be laughing out there, mocking at me, saying that i am hopeless, work so hard also cant produce good results. yeah.. but so wad? they are slackers. They are lucky in life. They are smart. but so wad? maybe I am dumb but i am sure i am hardworking.

pls.. the sinister creature by the name of 'Nervousness', pls get out of my life. I hate u! u caused me to screw up my papers. U are my enemy. GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!

::tOday::
to thOse ppl who really care boUt me:
thanz a lot for ur encouragements and motivations. i will keep on trying, indefinitely. Dun worry for me. I will not be killed so easily. I will stand up again and stun everyone with my O levels results. This prelim is jsut another fall for me. I MUST learn how to pick up myself and work harder and smarter. to thOse slackers out there, dun worry. I will beat all of u. Joan will definitely do well in Os. She will not be defeated again!

okie. Today juSt gonna finish up my packing and stuffs. den will go and do some a maths.

to Fel, thanz for being such a good fren. -hugs- i will zhen zuo qi lai. =)

to pig, thanz for being there for me too. I know u wanne share my sorrows and burdens with me. Thanz. I will not let u worry bOut me again. -HugS- =)

to my mommY, thanz for being there too and for being so understanding. I know i have let u down again and again. sOmetimes i wish i was smarter so that i can produce results that will make u proud of me. sorry.. i cant make u proud of me for prelims. But i will make u proud of me for o levels.

Joan

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9:36 AM

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thats it my jojo
hmmm...jiayou! im always here for u to call.

love, pigpig

By Anonymous, at 10:52 AM

heyhey.. dun sad dun sad la.. i bet no one'z mockin at u or wad.. cause we noe u are hardworkin n put in a lot of effort.. who will be so evil to do that.. aniwae.. this may be a blessing in disguise. this time nv do well.spur u to do betta.. den hey presto! ur o levels will pass with flying colours de.. me have faith in u.. ya.. nervousness is so irritating rite.. esp during examz.. u tend to forget evern single shit that u stuffed into ur brain the nite b4 or even weekz b4.. it lidat de.. so sae a lil prayer b4 u start.. take deep breathez. .juz tell urself.. hey.. this is juz a paper.. why should i be afraid of a paper?!..ha.. den can le. soudns stupid.but thatz wad i do.. lala.. all the best la.. cheer up, my fren

By =| mAriE |=, at 11:35 AM

u feeling better jiu hao...

By feL, at 1:31 PM

haiz.. joan ar... u scare me..
i know that the piano pract exam means a lot to u but we r humans and will always have to face difficulties and failures...
the joy of learning is not the end result but the journey itself.. the end result is only a bonus...
if u did well, u would be happy...
but if u did not, there's no need to be sadden by it, as long as u urself know that in ur heart u have the ability to do well, u dont have to be bothered by the exam result...
cos it's juz an indicator and indicator are not always accurate.. that's why u can see slackers doin so well while u didnt... the slackers did well b'cos they are exam smart, not truly smart...
JOAN WILL DEFINITELY DO WELL FOR O LEVELS!
dont worry! jia you!!
:)

By Anonymous, at 7:56 PM

failure is the mother of success. everything is just an obstacle. once u get pass them, everything'll be fine. and i am confident u can do it! afterall the joan i know never gives up. take care girl. -yayun

By Anonymous, at 8:04 PM

your mom loves you, so she will love you whether you do well or not. ^^ and so will we all! don worry about grade 8 prac. it's not easy to pass (obviously) 'coz it's grade EIGHT what...what matters is the hard work you put in. right now just focus on improving your results and your nerves can liao. last time i also nearly bombed out in my grade 5 prac. i messed up my best piece 'coz i nervous. good thing still borderline pass...anyway, jia you! we will all support you!

By zx, at 8:52 AM

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