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Sunday, September 05, 2004

hmm.. In the midst of drilling those sophiscated Chinese characters into my really puny brain, I decided to blog. hahaZ. woAh. now is oredi 12:12a.m. in the moRning. U must be thinking that Joan is crazy. Dosen she need to sleep?! hahaZ> well.. I dont feel tired at all. In fact, I am quite energetic now. So filled with bust, til I tink I can perservere til 2 or 3 a.m. hahaZ.

siGhz. fOUr years in Nan Hua are goin to whizz pass just like this. Still remember on the very last day in primary sch, everyone of us were hugging each other, so reluctant to let go of one another. Now, the whole traumatic scene is goin to re-enact. But this time, it's gonna be tougher to get over Sec life.

In primary school, everyone was so boisterous, running all about like scattered ants, so mischievous and oblivious of the surroundings. We never had to think a lot and to worry about anything. But now, all of us are growing, both physcially and emotionally. Ppl tend to become more mature and tink deeply. And there is goes, cheeks will go wet when everyone tinks of the inevitable separation, when everyone has his or her own road of destiny to embark... That will be the most traumatic parting ever. Everyone has been with each other for years and the bonding between each of us is jsut like an ionic bonding, it will take a really long time to really 'separate' us. Perhaps it will never break. Perhaps we will be just like diamonds...
If you dont agree, think about it again and again. No matter how much you dun like this sch, you are bound to have some frenz that are really cherishable and will never be forgotten... ;)
Stil remember that i really hated this sch when i first came Nan Hua. Everything here makes me feel sick and groggy. Hate the feeling, hate the ppl, hate the emptiness.... But now i came to realise that i really enjoyed my sec life. It is really far more interesting and exciting than pri. sch life. Guess we will jsut have to be adaptive. As we walk down the road of life, we will definitely acquaint with different ppl and alas, we make new frenz. Diff ppl have diff impact in our lives. It could be a good one, or a bad one. Be it a good one or bad one, we just have to accept it. Thats wad add colours to our lives.

I miss ChoiR.
I miss the choir gown that we had to wear reluctantly.
I miss the teachers.
I miss my frenz.
I miss the cleaners.
I miss every single corner in the building of Nan Hua S.S.
I miss every little joke we shared.
I miss every little thing that made me teared.
I miss every little moment when we were cheering.
I miss every little thought that we shared....

Okie. So in a few months time, my sec life will end. ='( It has really make me grow up a great deal. Thruout the yrs, I cried, laughed, smiled, cheered, got angered so many a times... These will alweez be etched in my memory. Memories are meant to be kept and remembered for life. A fren made a day brings a different joy. How I wish i can keep all these memories in a box and take them out whenever i want to appreciate them. It would be a good recollection of all the memories in nh.

To dear pals,
I will miss you ppl foreva in life! A good fren is just like a four leaf clover, really hard to find and hard to grow. Once found, I will alweez cherish. If i ever made you feel sad, annoyed, irritated or frustrated, I apologize with sincerity. wiThout you ppl, guess my days in Nh wont be as fun they seem to be now. I do get teased a lot by ppl like paul, si yuan and etc... but seriously speaking, i have never really got angered by those teasings at all. I take it as an honour. haha. yah. Ppl need to tease other ppl to get some joy, so here am I for you to tease. If i ever appear angry or wad, I dun mean it k? heheZ. Just wanne thank you ppl who made my life in Nh. You ppl are the four leaf clovers i have been looking for... thanz!!!

-marie-
have been nice knowing a good fren like you. Really like your cheerfulness and liveliness in you. You are really one of a kind. Sorry if i tend to 'bang seh' you at times.. hahaZ. will alweez remember you as a pal who gave me encouragements and the solutions to my problems. thanz!

-fel-
heheZ. hey hipPo! have been really nice to know you as a hippO. hahz. -__- hmm. you have been a great pal. If u feel better after shouting at me or criticising me.. hahaz. [ i know you dun mean it. =)] you are obliged to do so. Dun forget I am alweez by yOur side! heheZ.

-jAne-
heheZ. sorry for alweez nicknaming you as Garfield Cat. ;) hahaz> tink you really look as cute as Garfield! hehZ> will alweez remember you as a fren who gave me encouragements too. You are my wonderful 'ah ma' in 4o3.. [thOugh you alweez dun ren4 wo3]

-Paul-
hahaZ> thanz for encouraging me when i do badly for exams and tests. You are a funky boi who alweez trys to make me 'angry' but you have never really succeeded... whaahahZ. Nice to know you as a good fren.

-VerOn-
hmm. You r really a treasured fren u know? Sorry if i have neglected you, Veron.. Dun forget, you will alweez be my good fren! You are a fren who gives me Jin1 yu4 liang2 yan2 when i am down. You are alweez helping me whenever i am helpless and lost. You are alweez there to comfort me. ThAnz!!!

-hwee hwee-
Sorry if i neglected you too..=/ you are a appreciated fren. A nice fren to tok to when i had so many problems. A good fren to play bball with to! Hope we wil have chance to play with the others after graduation.. heheZ,.

-PIG!-
hmm.. Must really thank you for bringing hope into my life. hehZ. YOu made me have some confidence in myself. Thanz a lot pig! Guess you are rite.. everyone is unique. Sorry if i made u sad at times... when i am not feeling good. guess i am too emotional at times. yuPz. thanz for everything you have done for me. I hope i really deserve them. =) love you loTz pig! U gave me lots of things tat cheer me up everyday. I know you are alweezz there for me. Thanz! -pinch you nose and squeals!-

hmm.. this entry is kinda long.. hahaZ> sorry peePz. made you ppl read so much! hahaZ. Stil have a lot of things to say.. but decided to stop. Wad I wanne add on is.. Ganbatte! I know everyone can make it for Os. must be certain of urself! =)

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

1:10 AM

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5 Comments:

wow.. wad a long entry.. =] hahahx... hmmmmx i'll miss nanhua. nah, i'll miss the people.. and dance.. i wont miss the school. -.- hehee.. jiayouu.. don burn too much midnight oil... can save some to cook things. =P bleahh hahaahax.. study hard but take care of ur health worhh!

By Seow Ting, at 6:01 PM

thanks Joan.

i'm sorry if i never appeared to be someone whom you can trust or someone you can confide in or just someone who can give you good advice. i never have been able to give people what they want to hear, or good advice because i only tell them how i feel. i'm not matured enough to think of both sides and consider what is the best way for you to go. maybe to you i'm just someone who needs to be given more comfort instead of me giving others comfort, though i've tried at times but i don't seem to succeed. nevertheless, thank you for coming into my life. maybe i've never made any great impact on anyone or their lives, but i'd still like to thank you for everything. thank you for accepting me for me.

By feL, at 2:44 PM

whoA..im so 'flattened'.
ha..jiayou k FATPIG!..
ill always b there!..jus call me... n POUFF!
~im here~

hahaX..love u lots.
love love~+up!dpig~

By Anonymous, at 5:17 PM

hmm.. we all sort of drifted apart. but i will nv ever forget all the times we had.. u me wt raymond.. go german centre wif u all, eat at causeway, ban mian, cinnamon bread and all. u all realli colour up my life. realli glad i met u guyz. its sad to leave nh hor..but tian xia wu bu shan zhi yan xi.. so..ha.. hope we all can go same jc. also hor, so paiseh, use ur blog also to sae a huge thankz to rena anita sansan n shouzhen too.. ha.. they r reali one of a kind. rena- alwaez make me, gek me, had lotz of fun. anita- alwaez there when i needed someone to tok to sansan-alwaez showing my msges on her hp sz- alwaez luffing together wif me. ok la.. joan-alwaez giggling together, luffing at stupid things n such, had loadz of fun though u alwaez pangseh me la. weiting-alwaez tok crap together, had a lot of fun also nehz.. aniwae. glad i have such wonderful frens. u are all indeed blessings from god!. thankz for being my frenz!! treasure u guys a lot. a part of my heart will alwaez be saved for u guys!! :) all the best for o-s!! marie

By Anonymous, at 9:46 PM

*hugs* wo ye hui xiang nian ni de. (i thought i was the only one who missed the gown! hehe) and diamond is covalent bond. ^^ nbms we can be like superglue. yong bu fen li! eat up the pear! yes, we shld be like diamonds. tho now we're rough-hewn, the years of education is slowly polishing us, preparing us for the day it's our turn to shine. and when the day comes, let us all sparkle like ultra huge carat diamonds! ^^ (i darn lame today. lol.) tml rod liao...*sigh*

By zx, at 10:22 PM