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the world is not fair? it never is...
u reap wat u sow.. it seems unfair because wat u sow havent bear fruit, not that it never will..
if u hav the patience, u will one day get to enjoy the fruits of ur labour..
as long as u plant the right seed u will always get the fruit u want!
jia you.. reach for the stars!
be patient.. dont worry so much lah..
:)
what's more far-fetched? me becoming a soccer player or you becoming a doc? mine lahz... cheer up ehz!
wow you awed me. and I thought I am already one who thinks too much. Lolxz. dun think so much lahz, not that it helps to increase much brain folds anyway =X Look, as in really look, but tilt your head down slightly; 人无远虑，必有近忧. You look too far beyond and you tend to forget what's right infront of you. Take life one step at a time, there's so much we haven't seen so don't attempt to anticipate what you can't anticipate. Enjoy life for what it is now but just remember to stay focused!:)
ah, the chinese words came out all wrong, if you can't read it, ignore =P
can read the chinese words. encoding: unicode.
*hugs* i also lidat what. i results not good also face black until like dunnoe what. cry if you must but one day you still have to stand up again...
everyone changes. all the time. the world is changing every minute, every second. it all depends on how we adapt to the change, or oppose the change. if you know there's a change and u don't like it, change the change! change yourself back to who you were last time. it's possible. i did it. one of my closest friend changed me till i couldn't even recognise myself. till i hated myself. but i realised it was her influence though she didnt mean it. and i changed myself back to who i am.
it's always this case. the poor suffers and the rich enjoys. like you've said - the hardworking doesnt get paid off but the slackers get it. but i still choose to believe that ultimately the person who suffers is still the one who doesn't work hard enough. the person may be luck from time to time, but can't be all the time. no one is perfect. when someone is good in a certain way, there's bound to be something about this person he/she isn't good in. it's compensation. you get the bad, but you also get the good.
u shd ask yourself, why do you want to become a doctor? to serve mankind? is it a childhood ambition or was it just meant to prove yourself? for the money? for the satisfaction? the dream may be far-fetched, but if you really make up your mind you will be able to cross all obstacles. it's all about determination and perseverance. if you want to be a doctor because you want to help others, i believe there are many other ways.
there's always a place where you belong. just follow your heart.
all i could did n wil do is to TRY to cheer u up.
still broading over those things u said to me this afternoon. forgive me for not being good enough. well... guess ill have to keep trying. u werent as weak as b4.. i dun noe y... change??? guess its bcuz of me. ~guilty~ soRRy.
love,PIg PIg
u have changed.. everyone changes.. but i definitely know u have not changedin a negative prospect lyke becoming lazier or stupider. i wanna be zookeeper.. ha.. ok.. go ahead n luff. but i m scared of insects ar, fierce animals ar n clearing shit..ha. i juz wanna be the person that brings lil kids for short rides on horses."The poor alweez have to suffer.. while the rich alweez get to enjoy".. sometimes in life, we see things differently. The poor nid not have to be rich in orde to be happi, they may be living in a happi n warm family while the rich dun. try lookin at the positive side of everything, den u will realise that nothingz that bad afterall. if something makes u frown, somethin muz be able to make u smile too( i also dunno wad i saying..ha.) whn god closes a door, he opens another one.i noe u are veri hardworking n such, but maebe u dun see it in ur results. lookin at the positive side, u had learnt more than wad otherz have, understood more than them, can apply it more to real life than them.so muz cheer up. i noe it maebe be realli devastating to noe that ur fren nxt to u who doesnt study getz higher gradez den u . Itz hard not to be sad or angry. i understand. juz try ur best okiez.:) aiyo.. n dun work till u fall dead.. dun work until so so so freakin hard.ha. all work n no play makes jack a dull boy..ha. study hard, play hard! obstacles are present in eveyone's life.some ppl get tired of it, some ppl overcome it. u had betta be the one who overcomes it ok..ya.. wanna sae.. leavin nh soon. so..wanna tell u (itz from a sms).. *life's like a novel, many chapters read and forgotten.But there is one i wun 4get. It the chapter when i met u n become FRENZ! *
ya.. 4got to rite my name.. but tink u can guess who wans to be a zookeeper rite? ya la.. itz me.. marie.. ha..
i think u shouldn't compare results so often... yes, sometimes slackers do get some luck and get better reslts, but tt doesn't mean tt u're stupid or didn't hard enuff.. instead of comparing the subj tt u've lost to the slacker, try comparing those u've beat the slacker, cos one such subj requires intelligence and hardwork, and tt's maths.. u're a v clever gal joan, believe in ur abilities cos many other pple do envy/are jealous of ur results as well... i truly understand ur feeling when some slacker getting higher grades than u, it's really v terrible.. but i've learnt to let go of this "feeling of injustice" or "jealousy" and accept wad i had achieved and work harder the next round =) jia you k..! btw.. the other day saw u at the mrt like not feeling so gd... hmm.. cheer up k... if possible, LAUGH!! HAHAHA!!! cos laughter is the medicine to all illness!!! ;) hmmm guess u should noe hu i m.. heh... c'ya!
Saturday, September 25, 2004
I swear I am going mad soon. There will soon be a disease call 'Mad Joan Disease'. hahaZ. This disease is caused by the big set back during the Prelims exams. Joan was shocked and freaked out by the questions.
siGh. Bio. I tot I could actually try to score an A1 for it. My hope is totally gone for Bio. The dream of getting an A1 for Bio is totally smashed. aH! The more demoralizing thing is the moment I read Kegan's blOg. oMg. He aims for a score of 61/80 for biO p2. omG. thAts horrendously hiGh. hahaZ. After I read his blOg and saw his aims for those papers.... my eyes almost gorged out. hmm. perhaps his 'difficult' is my 'borderline passing'? omG lor. biO p2.. i am totally hoPEless. siGhz. I swear I studied everything. but i tink the problem with me is that I was kinda freaked out by the qns when I am doing it. siGh. nVm. I shall work even harder. Sometimes I think, whether it's because I work too hard then thoughts too confused that cause me to do badly or not so well. siGh. maybe its true for me. But if I dun work hard, i will do as badly too. hahZ. I am starting to lose hoPes oredi.
The thing that i can confirm is that I am not a smart gal. I am actually a bit dumb or quite dumb or very dumb. I cant think properly and clearly at times. I cant figure out things correctly many a times. I need more time I guess. Pls ppl.. dun tink I am smart. I am just pure hardworking dats all. I can twist along with the questions only at certain times.. but many a times, I will be screwed by them. hahaZ. bIo is one of my fav. subjEcts. and yet I am goin to get my first B this time. isnt this really disheartening? I am totally drained by all these exams. These exams evoked fear out of me and i no longer harness any high hoPes for any subjEct. maybe I am a person who has very little confidence in myself.. but i guess as the exams go on, I become more and more sick and tired of them.
I dun like ppl to think that i am smart la. Coz i am not at all. Ppl tink i will do well when i say i wont. well... when i say i wont do well, it really means that I wont do well. My so called 'easy'.. means i can score a mere A1 for that paper. Not high As!!!! hahaz. guess my aims aren't that high.
~scReamS~~~
how i wish everything will go away quickly. I seriously need some serenity to calm myself down and to prepare for the Os ahead. -Sad- Dun dare to take back any results. Guess I will just be facing another biG set bAck.
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joan, believe in urself, u can do it!
pls believe that u r smart, u really are..
dont be dishearten by these small obstacles along the road
there r always time when we dont meet our own expectations so dont be bothered by it k?
and one more thing..
live ur life without comparin with that of another, u will be really happy
dont worry too much lah!
c'mon joan. i'm not smart either. but you know what? at least you're hardworking. not like so assholes. who thinks being smart is enough.
being smart doesn't equate to being dumb. if you're dumb, you can work a thousand times harder and still don't get it. pls, qin neng bu zuo is crap.
i love biology too. i wasn't given bio. i was given lit to come to 3/3. eileen was given lit and i was given bio. if i didn't freakingly insist that i want bio i won't even be in this class girl. bio, i can say, is the only subject i have passion for. i don't even know if i can do well.
the fate is in God's hand. leave it to Him. wait patiently, and He will fulfill your dreams.
A
Thursday, September 23, 2004
hmm.. Prelims... so far not good. siGh. Guess I really suck for almost every paper. wOah. Do the teachers even have good hearts? hahaZ. Papers all set til so difficult, making almost everybody so demoralized. for combined humnanities, i merely aim for a pass. I am done for for my history and Ss. Cool sia. omG. HCl paper was so tough today. The comprehension... I read through so many times and yet i dun really understand. I dun even know what are the qns are asking for. THe only thing that i am happy is that i know all the words for sections A and B. hahahZ. Thats the easiest of all.. -_- But it cant help me much la. Tmr Bio paper. woAH. whole textbook plus so many papers to revise and look through. hahaz> can become a panda bear or panda pig soon. -_- Now i am reading on the effects of Sulphur dioxide and nitrogen oxides. Well, dont think it will come out again ba, since mid yr came out le. oh man.. tmr's paper will be tough AGAIN! oh no! Guess this time i cant do well. nvm. After prelims.. work harder again for Os. Anyway, ultimately, the results that is more important is Os, not prelims. hahaZ. bTw... if i cant get into NJ for the first three months, i will either heed my mom advice by staying at home to teach piano or go PJ.. hhaz. PJ quite near to my house when compared to other JCs. hehehZ. MAybe just go there for fun? siGhz. No idea.
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see la..told u study venice le. . >.< .. aniwae.. juz here to suan u .. tomorow i dun have to go to school.. n have been slping for the whole dae.. ok la. dun so evil.. u ar.. betta do well in bio..wanna be doc rite..n agree.. the teachers r sick..prelims make so diff.. den how i go jc.. i tink i go poly they also dun wan accept me.. but aniwae. as long as u hav tried ur best n worked hard can le la.. who cares bout the results.. o level is more impt. aniwae.. i dun tink u nid 2 worry bout ur results lor.. u beta worry bout mine..ha. ok.. read ur blog..gave u a comment.. happi?..ha gd luck for bio! ---marieeee
hmmm... im oso ost for words.. oh nvm...
~whenever I look at you I gather the ideas
that you were made before the flowers
and then God copied on you to make the roses.~
love, pigpig
LOLs. at least you happy with your section a and section b lorhs. i'm not happy with anything.
girl arh, it's not the end of the world. you must understand that there are a lot of pple worst than u. if not in class, it's in the school.
don't too demoralised. must concentrate! *nags again*
we go pJ together can?! haha. really lehs. if i dont get into nJ i'll go pJ lorhs. cross my fingers&heart. [=
jia you.
dudette, don't burn out horz...
dont worry.. you are already the future doctor in my head already so u definitely will be. haha. think i'm gonna get bad grades too. if we not happy, we go kill the teachers? haha. u kill half i kill the other half.. XD jk.. anyway good luck for the rest! jia you. -yayun
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
WoAH. Wad anOTher day that i feeL likE dying.. hahZ. physics and enGLish. Both papers are hard. anyWay... Just have that bad omen that i wont do well for all subJEcts. hmm.. everybody jsut jia you ba! Dun know where can I go after getting back prelims results lor
hahaZ. horrIBle.
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hmmm...don look back!!!! chiong ahead!!! u can make it.. jiayou!!!
love~pig pig~
(: TTL's right. Don't look back! Or you can't concentrate. jia you. don't too stressed!
Monday, September 20, 2004
Ah!! OMg.. E mAths paper One was fairly easy, but I hope I din make any stupid mistakes that are really unpardonable. SighZ. i tink I screwed up my Ss paper. OMG. Guess i am goin to be hopeless for prelims soon. sighz. CombinEd HUmanities is a veyr important subject and yet I am not goin to well for it. Omg. sigHZ. Wad if I fail for Ss? HIstory paper cant help me much either, coz i have never done well for History too. GosH. The topicS that i really studied in detail din came out at all. The topics that I glanced through briskly came out instead. siGhz. I really have no luck at all. Guess I am really unlucky in times of exams. siGH... JoAn is so stuPid. nObody can deny that oredi. Why must combined humanities be included in L1R5!? Is not as if we will need it in our future job or wad. I hate humanities!!! siGhz. aCtually i used to love it but ever since i take combined humanities, nothing seems to work out for me. I alweez either do quite okie or really bad for it. SIGHZ. GOd.. Please help me get out of this darkness.. Guess I wont be able to get into NJ...... =/
-sAd jOan-
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eh... chill la... dun look back... chiong ahead!
work hard fly high...
*when you take 11 red roses
and stand in front of a mirror
you will see 12 of the most beautiful
things in the world!*
love, pig pig.
hahaaa his comment so farnie! Aiyo.. you're not the only one girL.. don't think so much okay? *hugs*
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Time has past really quickly. We cant change the march of the years and there is no putting back of the hands of the clock. We have to look forward no matter what and have to cherish any moment we have. Time is precious.
siGh. Prelims have started. These significant exams of great importance really set people on their toes. Many people start to mug and wonder whether they can make it to their dream JC for their first three months. Well, I had that thought too. I was scared of facing my prelims' results but after that, I was enlightened by my dearest mom. I told her I was afraid that I cant make it to NJ for the first three months. Her reply was just do your best. The first three months are not important. GCEO level is more important. With that, I can set myself at mind. So, I think everyone should jsut work hard now and don't worry whether you can get into your dream JC. It will tire yourself up and drain your energy. heehZ. Spend your time wisely! hehZ.
hmm..so far i think physics pract is the easiest paper of all. I am really scared that I will fail for my paper one. hahaZ. Scared I will write out of point. Well, its useless to keep on regurgitating my own silly mistakes. hahZ. so I shall stop. hmm.. I can see that almost everyone is very stressed now. Everyone looked so tensed and gloomy. Whenever I see the gloomy faces, I am also affected. Sometimes I really wonder why must we have such big exams to decide our next embarkment in life? I feel that it is not really appropriate to have only one, only ONE BIG EXAM to decided someone's future. One big exam does not really test a person's capabilities. What if one made tonnes of silly mistakes that are unpardonable in that ONe bIG ExAm, and screw up everything, won't it be quite unfair? Esp to ppl who will have nervous breakdown when exams are nearing. Who knows what will happen? I feel that daily assessment of a person is much more accurate of a person's abilities. I dont think that just by one exam, you can judge the person well enough. Well, many a times in the society, this kind of phenomenom is very common. We tend to judge people in a superficial way. Only a handful can see deeply and make good judgements. hahaz.
People.. work hard and soar! hehZ. Dun be so slack le k? The sky will be urs to create if you work hard. I am sure anyone who works hard will get the fruit at the end of the day. Even if you dont, you know you have never let yourself down.. jia You!
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sighs. i'm still very sad!!
work hard then fly high!!!
~pigpig~
yup good luck to you too! and dont get so affected by everyone's moody expressions.. just smile like how u always do!! take care! -yayun
aiyo.. ya lor.. i agree . why let one stupid big exam deicide our future.. aiyo.. i so stressed.. wan to study..but cant get myself to sit still n study. veri hard nehz.. but i guess u all r rite.. prelims onli. main thing is o levels do well.. hm.. all the best to everyone take their os this year! :)
----hamham
Monday, September 13, 2004
siGh. actually tot that Chem practical would be quite fun ... But who knows.. I did not perform to mark again. siGhz. It is not a difficult paper, but I think I really screwed the whole thing up, especially for the VA part. ='( Maybe Joan is really pure dumb. If i can get at least a B3 for this paper, I will be sated, coz i know i wont do well for this practical paper.
When I was doing the chem prac, my hands were trembling like mad and beads or perspiration trickled down my hot face. the heat was really stupefying. How i wish i could actually treat the chem prac exam like normal practical session. When i started doing the VA, i felt that my heart was in my throat. Could not even pour the solutions into the flask properly.
Why must i be so nervous everytime?!? Sighz. guess its my nature. I alweez tell myself that i have no need to be nervous and to be scared but in the end, fears overwhelm me and seem to engulf me, making me hard to breathe and alas, I screw up everything.
GUess i would have to work really hard for the written papers. Hope i can score there. If not.. really gonecase. hahaz.
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hmmm it's an advantage? coz you wont commit the same mistakes again in Os.. hahax.. jiayouu bahh and nobody's dumb!
oh man.. PIGGY teo.. how did i manage to find ur blog? oh god.. lols.. teo? haha.. i screwed my prac anyway.. haha.. stay piggy and piggy and piggy and become to be less like tong.. he is not piggy anyway.. ahha.. tatas
shaun
Joan,
don't worry la! You will have no prob de! You have the potential lor. U def can get a1 for your chem de. Believe in yourself!
dont worry u can do it okie? we'll jia you together! -cheers for joan- gambatek! XD -yayun
don't die horz... don't worry, treat it like a normal prac... tell yourself heck care if i fail... that's what i always do...
im sure u can stil get a1 for chem... cheer up...work hard n fly high...!!! jia you!!! woohoo!
pig pig
Sunday, September 12, 2004
HELP HELP HELP!
Joan is dying!
She is so stressed!
She dun noe wad to do now.
She dun noe whether her method of studying is correct or not.
She is on the verge of breaking down.
She is standing on the very end of a cliff that is so prone to collapsing.
She is so hard of breathing now.
She doesen want to disappoint herself again and again,
Coz everytime she disappoints herself,
She feels tat she is hopeless.
*cries*
*screams*
'hELp~~'
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whoaa.. calm down yar.. don get so worked up.. soon everything will be over.. take it easy and think positively! take care~ hugs*
dont be so stress arr.. not really ideal at this period of time.. just concentrate on your exams and have confidence! you can do it! dont neglect your health becos of exams too! take care and jia you! -yayun
nothing in the world is definite. as long as it suits you, it is right. don't stress. don't disappoint yourself. don't give yourself any expectations. just go in and do your best.
Hmm.. I am so stressed now. Basically, I have touched on every single subject these few weeks. Of coz.. there is always too much to study and revise, til I seem to have developed [PHD]Permanent Head Damage as created by Ongymon. hahz. Yah. It pays to do well in exams. One has to put in lots of effort and has to restrain oneself from too much fun. I think I am a poor pig who has to undergo hellish treatment from my DEAREST brother and sister. WOAH!!!! Cant stand them at times! They cant speak calmy and softly. They shout and scream and yell.. all day long. Do they think i am deaf? hahaz.
trm Chem prac liaoz. SCARY!!! hahz.. I hope history will not repeat itself again, coz the chem prac exam that we did in mid year was simply horrible and disastrous. wOah. Still remembered when i strolled out of the chem lab, I almost wanted to bang myself against the wall. ha. felt so hopeless and numb. bRoke TWO boiling tubes somemore. haz. dat was really a nasty experience and guess we hadn't enough time to finish everything on time. when doing the chem prac, I felt like I was in an oven. The surroundings was so hot and stuffy and such, and i felt totally uneasy and was perspiring like mad. Really relly hope it would be much better this time. haz.
hha. bet everyone must be thinking of what to do after Os ba. hahaz. I am really really looking forward to the arrival of that day. Don't be surprised if i bring a champange to school on the last day of exam. haz. I will be so jubilant and will be jumping around like a juvenile, cheering like mad. haz. Woah. After Os, the next big event will be graduation day. sIGh. HIGH TEA. sianz. why must it be high tea?!? I would still prefer dinner. anyway... i gonna enjoy that day to the fullest. LAst day when everyone can get together to have a proper meal[hope so] and to have fun! hehz. will really cherish tat day. hope i wont be too happy or too sad on that day til i cry.
hmm.. gonna go out almost everyday and do the things tat i really want to do after Os. hehz. gonna let free of myself and enjoy myself. yah. four yrs of sec life pass came so quickly and are goin to be the past soon. SigH. I will definitely miss everyone in this school and will definitely keep in contact with everyone. gonNa send Christmas cards to everyone i know this Dec. hehz. so... hehehz.. I will be asking you ppl for ur address soon. whahahaZ. [i do tat everyyr]
And.. i am goin to MAKE THE CARDS myself. HAHAHAHAhz.
Everyone.. ganbatte!!!! hehez. sigh. Next tues.. gonna take back German Prelim results.. *screams~~~* Omg. siGh. so worried now. Worried til i dun really have any appetite and to get anything that is nice down my throat. Wad if i did badly?! I really wish i cna get at least an A2 lor. If not.. i will be so sad so sad. Confidence level will plunged right down into the deep blue sea and never rise. =/ Hope i will do quite well.. =(
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ok.. see u so cham i leave a comment bahh... heeee jiayou for prelims!! u sure beat me one.. sosad.. boohooo.. don do too well.. =]
sighs.. actually i would have a lot of things to say about this entry.. but there's this overwhelming feelings in both of us that i dunnoe how to express.. i'm stressed as well.. stress level is 10/10. =X sighhs i dunone what to say girL.. it'll get past.. if not now, it's 2 months later.. sighhs.. *huggs*
Monday, September 06, 2004
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Sunday, September 05, 2004
hmm.. In the midst of drilling those sophiscated Chinese characters into my really puny brain, I decided to blog. hahaZ. woAh. now is oredi 12:12a.m. in the moRning. U must be thinking that Joan is crazy. Dosen she need to sleep?! hahaZ> well.. I dont feel tired at all. In fact, I am quite energetic now. So filled with bust, til I tink I can perservere til 2 or 3 a.m. hahaZ.
siGhz. fOUr years in Nan Hua are goin to whizz pass just like this. Still remember on the very last day in primary sch, everyone of us were hugging each other, so reluctant to let go of one another. Now, the whole traumatic scene is goin to re-enact. But this time, it's gonna be tougher to get over Sec life.
In primary school, everyone was so boisterous, running all about like scattered ants, so mischievous and oblivious of the surroundings. We never had to think a lot and to worry about anything. But now, all of us are growing, both physcially and emotionally. Ppl tend to become more mature and tink deeply. And there is goes, cheeks will go wet when everyone tinks of the inevitable separation, when everyone has his or her own road of destiny to embark... That will be the most traumatic parting ever. Everyone has been with each other for years and the bonding between each of us is jsut like an ionic bonding, it will take a really long time to really 'separate' us. Perhaps it will never break. Perhaps we will be just like diamonds...
If you dont agree, think about it again and again. No matter how much you dun like this sch, you are bound to have some frenz that are really cherishable and will never be forgotten... ;)
Stil remember that i really hated this sch when i first came Nan Hua. Everything here makes me feel sick and groggy. Hate the feeling, hate the ppl, hate the emptiness.... But now i came to realise that i really enjoyed my sec life. It is really far more interesting and exciting than pri. sch life. Guess we will jsut have to be adaptive. As we walk down the road of life, we will definitely acquaint with different ppl and alas, we make new frenz. Diff ppl have diff impact in our lives. It could be a good one, or a bad one. Be it a good one or bad one, we just have to accept it. Thats wad add colours to our lives.
I miss ChoiR.
I miss the choir gown that we had to wear reluctantly.
I miss the teachers.
I miss my frenz.
I miss the cleaners.
I miss every single corner in the building of Nan Hua S.S.
I miss every little joke we shared.
I miss every little thing that made me teared.
I miss every little moment when we were cheering.
I miss every little thought that we shared....
Okie. So in a few months time, my sec life will end. ='( It has really make me grow up a great deal. Thruout the yrs, I cried, laughed, smiled, cheered, got angered so many a times... These will alweez be etched in my memory. Memories are meant to be kept and remembered for life. A fren made a day brings a different joy. How I wish i can keep all these memories in a box and take them out whenever i want to appreciate them. It would be a good recollection of all the memories in nh.
To dear pals,
I will miss you ppl foreva in life! A good fren is just like a four leaf clover, really hard to find and hard to grow. Once found, I will alweez cherish. If i ever made you feel sad, annoyed, irritated or frustrated, I apologize with sincerity. wiThout you ppl, guess my days in Nh wont be as fun they seem to be now. I do get teased a lot by ppl like paul, si yuan and etc... but seriously speaking, i have never really got angered by those teasings at all. I take it as an honour. haha. yah. Ppl need to tease other ppl to get some joy, so here am I for you to tease. If i ever appear angry or wad, I dun mean it k? heheZ. Just wanne thank you ppl who made my life in Nh. You ppl are the four leaf clovers i have been looking for... thanz!!!
-marie-
have been nice knowing a good fren like you. Really like your cheerfulness and liveliness in you. You are really one of a kind. Sorry if i tend to 'bang seh' you at times.. hahaZ. will alweez remember you as a pal who gave me encouragements and the solutions to my problems. thanz!
-fel-
heheZ. hey hipPo! have been really nice to know you as a hippO. hahz. -__- hmm. you have been a great pal. If u feel better after shouting at me or criticising me.. hahaz. [ i know you dun mean it. =)] you are obliged to do so. Dun forget I am alweez by yOur side! heheZ.
-jAne-
heheZ. sorry for alweez nicknaming you as Garfield Cat. ;) hahaz> tink you really look as cute as Garfield! hehZ> will alweez remember you as a fren who gave me encouragements too. You are my wonderful 'ah ma' in 4o3.. [thOugh you alweez dun ren4 wo3]
-Paul-
hahaZ> thanz for encouraging me when i do badly for exams and tests. You are a funky boi who alweez trys to make me 'angry' but you have never really succeeded... whaahahZ. Nice to know you as a good fren.
-VerOn-
hmm. You r really a treasured fren u know? Sorry if i have neglected you, Veron.. Dun forget, you will alweez be my good fren! You are a fren who gives me Jin1 yu4 liang2 yan2 when i am down. You are alweez helping me whenever i am helpless and lost. You are alweez there to comfort me. ThAnz!!!
-hwee hwee-
Sorry if i neglected you too..=/ you are a appreciated fren. A nice fren to tok to when i had so many problems. A good fren to play bball with to! Hope we wil have chance to play with the others after graduation.. heheZ,.
-PIG!-
hmm.. Must really thank you for bringing hope into my life. hehZ. YOu made me have some confidence in myself. Thanz a lot pig! Guess you are rite.. everyone is unique. Sorry if i made u sad at times... when i am not feeling good. guess i am too emotional at times. yuPz. thanz for everything you have done for me. I hope i really deserve them. =) love you loTz pig! U gave me lots of things tat cheer me up everyday. I know you are alweezz there for me. Thanz! -pinch you nose and squeals!-
hmm.. this entry is kinda long.. hahaZ> sorry peePz. made you ppl read so much! hahaZ. Stil have a lot of things to say.. but decided to stop. Wad I wanne add on is.. Ganbatte! I know everyone can make it for Os. must be certain of urself! =)
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wow.. wad a long entry.. =] hahahx... hmmmmx i'll miss nanhua. nah, i'll miss the people.. and dance.. i wont miss the school. -.- hehee.. jiayouu.. don burn too much midnight oil... can save some to cook things. =P bleahh hahaahax.. study hard but take care of ur health worhh!
thanks Joan.
i'm sorry if i never appeared to be someone whom you can trust or someone you can confide in or just someone who can give you good advice. i never have been able to give people what they want to hear, or good advice because i only tell them how i feel. i'm not matured enough to think of both sides and consider what is the best way for you to go. maybe to you i'm just someone who needs to be given more comfort instead of me giving others comfort, though i've tried at times but i don't seem to succeed. nevertheless, thank you for coming into my life. maybe i've never made any great impact on anyone or their lives, but i'd still like to thank you for everything. thank you for accepting me for me.
whoA..im so 'flattened'.
ha..jiayou k FATPIG!..
ill always b there!..jus call me... n POUFF!
~im here~
hahaX..love u lots.
love love~+up!dpig~
hmm.. we all sort of drifted apart. but i will nv ever forget all the times we had.. u me wt raymond.. go german centre wif u all, eat at causeway, ban mian, cinnamon bread and all. u all realli colour up my life. realli glad i met u guyz. its sad to leave nh hor..but tian xia wu bu shan zhi yan xi.. so..ha.. hope we all can go same jc. also hor, so paiseh, use ur blog also to sae a huge thankz to rena anita sansan n shouzhen too.. ha.. they r reali one of a kind. rena- alwaez make me, gek me, had lotz of fun. anita- alwaez there when i needed someone to tok to sansan-alwaez showing my msges on her hp sz- alwaez luffing together wif me. ok la.. joan-alwaez giggling together, luffing at stupid things n such, had loadz of fun though u alwaez pangseh me la. weiting-alwaez tok crap together, had a lot of fun also nehz.. aniwae. glad i have such wonderful frens. u are all indeed blessings from god!. thankz for being my frenz!! treasure u guys a lot. a part of my heart will alwaez be saved for u guys!! :) all the best for o-s!! marie
*hugs* wo ye hui xiang nian ni de. (i thought i was the only one who missed the gown! hehe) and diamond is covalent bond. ^^ nbms we can be like superglue. yong bu fen li! eat up the pear! yes, we shld be like diamonds. tho now we're rough-hewn, the years of education is slowly polishing us, preparing us for the day it's our turn to shine. and when the day comes, let us all sparkle like ultra huge carat diamonds! ^^ (i darn lame today. lol.) tml rod liao...*sigh*
Friday, September 03, 2004
heeeZ. German prelims finally over! wahahhaZ. [anoTher burden oFf my shoulders] hmm.. the papers were quite hard i guess... not easy to score coz qns were damn tricky and involved lots of thinking and drilling.. =X
okie.. gonnA express my feelings again. hahaz. hmm.. not something good or bad la.. just wanne express myself.
Life is the toughest thing on earth to go through i guess. One has to undergo so many exams, tests and challenges in life. NobODy can avoid them and must even embrace them with ones outstretched arms. yOu cant put a roAd block to prevent all your problems and troubles from disturbing and overwhelming you. Life may not be as sweet as u expected and it may even be as bitter as a bittergourd. Perhaps at times you will lose your sense of taste--- tat is when u feel really numb and tired of life. It happens to many ppl.
to me, ever since a person is born, his or her life is a big box. It is up to ourselves to make it into an interesting and colourful box that is ever exuberant. The ppl in it makes our life interesting in one way or another, though the ppl we interact with are eithEr good or bad. Naturally, nobody's box is full of love or full of hatred, so dun fret if you feel awlfully bitter at times. Nobody's sweet foreva.
I am a person who is strongly attracted to the wonders of nature. Be it a rainbow, the swirling clouds, the sky, the trees, I alweez appreciate them for what they are. Dun think I am crazy when I take a long time looking at them. I really think that they are beautiful elements that make up part of my life. I love animals. I even have the ambition to open a zoo in the future. hahaZ. I hate ppl who torture animals. They kill them for their own needs, and it is those kind of mass killing... It pierces me heart. yupz.. sorry if i alweez say 'dun waste food'... hahaz. .i really cant stand ppl who waste food and ppl who are so so so fussy when it comes to eating. Yah.. some ppl hate vegetables. One will go ballistic when one finds a small bit of vege on ones plate. It really pisses me when i see that. Please.. think of the African kids. They have nth much to eat to cease their hunger. They even have to peel off the tree bark at times to fulfil their hunger. They have to eat things that we would never have thought of. So anything that is on your plate, please finish up everything. Dun waste food! Think of the African children who are so deprived of nutritions.
hmm.. Wanne say Mr Chan roX! heheZ. suCh a goOd teacher who likes to interact with small little kids like us. hahz. =P He really motivated me when we were playing the 'treasure hunting' game. hahaZ> ran around in sch searching for jin1 yu4 liang2 yan2. And he even added tat his fav. class is 4o3. wahahaz. I wil alweez remember him. hOpe tat he will have a bright future ahead of him!
Know everyone is stressed now. Prelims and Os r coming soon. If u havent started any revision, please start doing so now. Dun panick. Must be calm. ganbatte everyone! hehZ. i am sure everyone will make it if everyone gives in his or her best!
:: Some people dream of success.. while others wake up and work hard at it!::
So start working now. It may taste bitter but you will get a fruitful feeling at the end of the day!
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hii.. hmmm i waste food sometimes.. =x heehee.. mrchan rocks! he's so cooool.. and cute.. and nice... we must come back to nanhua to look for him when we graduate k? of course and many other wang de fu teachers we haf.. sobs sobs.. for now lets work hard together! =]
i'm sorry... should i stop killing insects? but i'm not cold-blooded! i really don't mean to kill them sometimes. and i do love animals! in fact, did u know that to be a zookeeper, all you hafta do is pass your PSLEs? cool, huh? i told my parents that... ahahaha i said "it's okay if i don't make it to secondary school/ pass my O levels... i can always be a zookeeper." hahahaha love from: you-know-who
Lolxz, again ask me give comments, bwahahaha...gao xiao, joan, you're one of a kind. =D anyway, good that there's someone who likes veggie, lolxz, yeah, so sickening to see pplz so choosy when it comes to food, this one dun eat that one dun eat. Haha, these few days so sick of pplz who keep complaining bout their bitter lives, so hope ya continue to keep your box full of happiness and joy! Your German, aiyah, no need worry one lahz... instead i should be the one worryin for jap...=S bleah, hapz studying! =)
i'm totally against those who abuse animals! animals are so cute.. definitely not for pple to torture.. and you have such a BIG heart! it takes so much courage to want to help those people.. and everything you said is so inspiring.. wow.. i so impressed that even me myself also wanna strive to work hard already- but i'm doubtful whether i'll still remember what i am saying now. anyway, you are such a gift to the world. just one person amongst the billions of people, but with a heart bigger than many. take care! -yayun XD
thanks Joan.
i'm sorry if i never appeared to be someone whom you can trust or someone you can confide in or just someone who can give you good advice. i never have been able to give people what they want to hear, or good advice because i only tell them how i feel. i'm not matured enough to think of both sides and consider what is the best way for you to go. maybe to you i'm just someone who needs to be given more comfort instead of me giving others comfort, though i've tried at times but i don't seem to succeed. nevertheless, thank you for coming into my life. maybe i've never made any great impact on anyone or their lives, but i'd still like to thank you for everything. thank you for accepting me for me.
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
hmm.. I shall give an account of what happened ytd. hahaZ.
::31o8o4::
Ytd we had teachers' day celebrations. It was not a large-scale one but I guess all of us enjoyed ourselves. There was the sandwich-making competition thingy and captain's ball compeition. hahZ. we were cheering for our class madly and of coz for our allies, 4/1. hahZ. Hmm.. Though we lost to 4/10, i tink our class played well. hmm... I have to say something that has been burning in my heart. WoAh. Cant stand SOME ppl. They say we are uncivilised ppl who played rough during the rugby game. Oh.. Isnt that false accusation?! WHO were the ones who played rough and WHO were the one who came out with all the F*** words?! WHO were the one who had really bad temper and pushed the blame to us?! WHO were the one who loved to criticise us when THEY themselves know nothing much bout the game?! Do THEY think that THEY are professional players?! OH.. PLease.. All of us are just playing rugby for fun and for the sake of our class. If you are unhappy with us, please tell us STRAIGHT in the face. Dont spread words behind us. It is totally indiscriminate!If you do think you ppl have played well in the games, please think over it over and over again. All of of are greenhorns when it comes to rugby. Nobody is perfect. We are not perfect, and you are not perfect too. You cant criticise other ppl when you urself are not doing it correctly. Dont say we are violent when u urself are worse. Stop being bias k?! 4o3 will alweez be united!
And to the 4o9 bois who jeered at us when we were playing rugby. THANZ for all those COMMENTS. So what if i am fat?! I can still run and play like other gals. Do ever discriminate or look down on fat ppl like me, coz you will regret and i will prove YOU wrong! Fat ppl are capable too. Pls remember this.
okie.. coming back to making sandwiches, hahaz.. i tink our class roX. i tink we were the most enthu class who brought so much food and stuffs to sch. hahZ. as if we really are having a picknic in school. Well, the sandwiches tasted simply delicious! hah. [Sie schmecken mir sehr gut! Sie sind köstlich und lecker! ] den Cheng rong went round inviting our teachers to our class for sandwiches. haahZ. Tink the teachers were kinda amused by us and i guess they enjoyed the food too. hahZ> hmm.. first time in life i see ppl making sandwiches with FRUITS. hahz.. [eerr... quite disgusting i tink? hahaz. ] But it is all for the fun la. ANyway.. the food really tasted pretty good. Den we took class photos. Woah.. Felt so reluctant to go off earlier and miss out the mass celebration in the hall.. hhaz.. had german exam to take. hmm..
After German Compo exam, i went to Doby Ghaut to meet Pig. hmm.. MRs Chang said that i must relax a bit.. so she asked me to go out with pig and frenz. hahaZ.. den she asked pig to wait for me. hahhahaahahz. So gao siAoz. hahaZ. =P [pig.. dun ever mistreat me ah.. hahaz,.. mrs chang is alweez there to protect me! wahahahhZ.]
So we went to watch Alien vs Predator. hahaz. Quite a nice show la.. but kinda scary. As in... the fighting scenes between the two freaks were quite horrible and gruesome. Woah. The contorted facial expression of the ppl really sent chills down my spine. hahZ. hmm.. den after tat went to take neoprints with pig and frenz. hahZ. niCe prints. woah. really relaxed the whole day,. except that during the german exam, I was really tensed and stressed. Was not in a mood for exams i guess. Who would want to leave a celebration in the midst to go for exams?! hahz.
:: o1o9o4::
heeZ. woke up this morning. feel so refreshed! wahahahZ. Gonna study study and study today. Sighz, the moment i woke up.. i tot of my german compo exam. hahZ. guess i found out that i made some errors here and there. shit.. i hope i will do quite well for it. hahaZ. Just finished studying some ke4 s for chinese. So decided to blog. gonna read thru Ss, Higher Chinese, Physics and do maths?! hahaz. jia yOU everyone! heheZ.
hmm.. *huGs* felZ. heheZ. dun tink so much liaoz k? hehZ. if anyone ever pissed you in anyway, try to take it easy. Dun tink so much. Everybody is different, needless to say different personalities will tend to clash with one another. So jsut look at the brighter side. Some ppl may be blunt when they comment or tok about some things but turning a deaf ear will do fine. Thats what i have learnt after playing rugby with those rowdy ppl. Even if its your good fren who made u feel bitter and angry, you shud take it easy too. Dun forget, you ahve other frenz like me who will alweez share ur problems with you. =) Cherr up hiPpo!
Thanz to ppl who asked me bout my grandma! =) If i need help in getting eggs, i will ask u ppl for help. Dun worry! heheZ.
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是是非非無法決擇
沒有後悔為愛日也去跟隨
那個瘋狂的人是我...
I LOVE YOU 無法不愛你 BABY
說你也愛我
I LOVE YOU 永遠不願意 BABY
失去你...
jiayou!!!
love,
~+up!dpig~
whoa. first time see you so agitated. those people are just idiots. i wanted to add the word brainless but i thought it would be an insult to the retards. HAH!
had fun too. especially after all the crap in the parade square. just wanted to cry. boo. and i can understand how reluctant one would feel ba. having so much fun and have to leave half way. sianZ. haha. you missed a lot after you left! lalala~
thank you dugong. i'm trying to take it easy. just need time to xi xiao. haha. sorry larh, i just cant the way she make herself "above the rest". like she's so great. shit her. everyday spoil my mood de lehs. what the shit.
hi.. heehee.. don so hardworking.. *sobsob* lol jk.. im sure u will do well for german! jiayou..
whoa! hehz you're scary! you actually intend to study that much today?! spent half the day dozing off... anyway way to go to your spirit! There are just some people who you can simply ignore. All they did was accidentally found their way into nh, yeah, so just be oblivious to their presence and remarks. Lucks for german! (like you need any) =)
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