_____im no longer behind u...*

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

siGh. These few days took back common test results. well.. did very badly for some subjects, esp for Ss and Physics. For English, I merely passed. =X hmm.. cried a lot these few days. First for Ss, den Physics. I have been trying to purge my tears from cascading out of my eyes but to no avail. I will inevitably come to think about how stupid, how brainless and how nonsensical i am. My cheeks went wet for two consecutive days. I was really shocked that i failed Ss, coz i thought i will do quite okie. Well, everyting's over and i really want to thank Fel, Crys, Paul, Lulu and some other people who literally cheered me up. Thanz for all your support and encouragement. I really love all of ya! hahz.. [pig pig. u must be thinking why i din mention you.. rite? hahaz. ]
hmm.. of coz.. the first person who made me laugh like hell after i cried was Teo Tong Loong. hahz. my pig pig. hmm.. must say that his stupid face has really evoked laughter out of me. =P jk pig. Thanz a lot. You have to put up with my moody face and wad not, and i guess it is really torturous to you. Sorry. Guess we will just have to work even harder. Thanz for making me laugh.. [Hercules have long hair.. den he has the strength] hahz. okie.. i shall believe you. I will get smarter if i have long hair. So i shall keep long hair! =)

-Hugs to everyone!-

hmm... Was walking home just now. Den it began to sleet. I did not bother to take out an umbrella, coz i felt that it was of no use. I need to have a 'from head to toes wash'. I need the rain to wake me up. As i strolled, the cold wind blew against me. The rain drops hit me again and again. just wanted the cold to ice my heart coz i really felt numb. I felt so useless. Why are some ppl so smart, smart til they need not study but stil they do pretty well or VERY well. Guess i am really pressurized by paul. He is a smart dude sia. okie.. maybe i am Kiasu la.. but i tink that ought to be the way when it comes to study. I cannot depend on luck, not like some ppl. If i dun study... i will fail.

okie.. anyway.. I told me mom bout my results, not verbally but thru emailing her. Wad can i say after receiving her reply?!? She is definitely and will alweez be the greatest ever mom on earth. She encouraged me and allowed me to find my way out of the valley of sorrow. Here is a quote dat i picked from the mail she sent to me..

[Please don't deprive yourself, in my eyes, you are a bright & pretty girl with bright future. I always think highly of you so don't call yourself stupid again.]

[So don't cry baby, just work hard for the GCE O but before you study, please have a good rest. Please talk to me whenever you feel like it.]

hmm.. felt so warm after reading her reply. Felt like crying again. So touched. Really love my mom. She has been my pillar of strength all these yrs. Without her, I wont be able to venture far. haz. And she added.. that i have a good looking boyfriend who showers me a lot of love. hahaz.. [happy la you pig.. hahaz]

hmm.. sorry ppl.. if i made u all worry bout me.... esp A4 and pig pig. Sorry for being so moody today coz i din really feel like toking much. I felt so useless and horrible but now.. i am feeling much more better.

I will pick up myself again. I will work hard at my weak subjects. I will continue to brave the storm and conquer all my foes. I will not die so easily. Thanz ppl! yOU rock me life!

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

5:08 PM

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6 Comments:

Success is not measured by how perfect u are.. but by how high you bounce when u fall.( totally original :DDD) take care :)

By Anonymous, at 5:58 PM

=] jiayou! take care! i love ur mother. -.-

By Seow Ting, at 6:31 PM

[.hamCee.] hahax sO muSt liSten tO ur mama de hua.dOn lOok dOwn on urslf!paul ashO lOok veh veh veh hard de.sO this time get sO scary the results he realli deserve.cOmpare urslf with urslf!u wOrked hard and u nOe *thumB* ya i lOve ur mama tOo =x sO niCe T.T

By Anonymous, at 8:51 PM

*hugs* wo men yi qi jia you!!! (and i don't mean to insult, but the dude with the long hair and huge strength was Samson. Delilah, the woman he loved, cut off his hair and he lost his strength.) i didn't do that well either...besides...the lower you fall, the higher you can rise.

By zx, at 9:54 PM

to my dearestest fat pig,

Lives are for living I live for you
Dreams are for dreaming I dream for you
Hearts are for beating mine beats for you

...ill always be there for u...hope i can make u smile whenever u r sad...

Angels are for keeping. Can I keep you?

love~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 10:24 PM

I almost tears while reading your message. Please dun torture yourself as it really break my heart. My dear girl, be kind to yourself and dun push too much. I knew you will make it to NJC. My six-sense is always right. God bless U! Lov, mum

By Anonymous, at 4:50 PM