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Friday, July 30, 2004

hahaZ.. today has been kinda fun.
okie... duRing pE, as usual we were playing touch rugby. woAh! when playing ah... i was screaming and shrilling like a mad pig, and whenever the receiver cant catch the 'rice grain-like' rugby ball, jOey would keep tellin the person to 'wipe it clean'. hahaZ.. den it became like a chant like that... coz everytime when a person cant catch the ball, we will pin point at the person and repeat the 'magical words' many times. hahZ.. had a good laugh sia. the way we gals kick the ball, really damn comical. [yEah! we scOred oNe goAl! wahahahZ>. thanz to Pei xIa. hahaz.] whole pE was likE a laughing sessiOn. =P

and yuPs.. we have a new pE cum a maths teacher.. hahaZ.. he is mr Chan! haahZ. the quite cute loOking teacher who has a really big head i tink... wah.. he very bhb... keep saying he is very handsome.. -_- omG lor.. hahaz..

woAh.. durIng bIo lesson.. hahaz.. i had a really 'awful' time.. why? siGhz.. i am really scared of blOod ma... den mRs oNg was shOwing us video clIps on pregnancy this kinda thing. Cesaeren thingy... and the three phases of giving birth thingy... omg.. i almost really fainted lor.. sOunds so painful. hahaz.. some other gals were really agonised by that. hahaZ. den mrs ong narrated her own story.. when she was giving birth to her dearest daughter... wOah... there was one part she mentioned that after her little daughter came out of her uterus, blood was spurted all over the operation theatre... and the dOc was smeared with blood too.. hahahz... i was like... really on the verge of fainting liao.. hahaZ>. damn gory... hahahZ.. guess i turned really pale ba. hahaZ. [shit lor.. hOw am i gOing to be a dOc in this way.. siGhz... ]

hmmm.. maths lesson... woah.. got the shOck Out of my life man! hahaz.. so diu lian. we went thru Nov 2oo2 Paper One. When teOh came in, he started calling out ppl's name to go to the board to write down the solution of the ans they were supposed to do. hahaz. Auggi was the first, followed by pAul, den me and etc. hahZ>. I was supposed to do qn 3.. but i tot i was supposed to do qn 4! okie.. but i realised quick enuf that i was supposed to do qn 3.. den i searched for my ans in the stack of paper in my hands.. my mind totally went blank when i found out that i din do qn 3 lor!!!! hahaahZ... suey rite? hahaz.. i tot i did it lor... and was so happy when he asked me to go show my working... hahaz.. scarly the qn he asked me to do... i DIN DO... -_- hahaz.. desperately, i turned to paul.. hahz.. hOping that he has an ans.. to my disappointment.. he don know how to do too.. =X den.. 'lady luck' was on my side.. hahaz.. here came wei ting who was just beside me.. yUpz.. i copied her solution onto the board... thinking that she knew how to do... scarly.. when i walked back to my seat... teOh told me that my ans is WRONG!!! ahhh!!!! den he asked me to stand at the board there to think and present the cOrrect working for the qn... waH.. i really had no idea what is the qn trying to say... my mind really went blank after he told me i had to stand at the board til i had a solution for the [stupid] qn. yah.. panicking like mad... but i grabbed on really tightly to the marker and wrote things... i don want to stand at the board for whole TWO periods... doing nth but guessing... !!!! hahahz.. but in the end.. i found a solution to the idiotic qn. wOah.. kinda relieved sia.. hahaz.. but i was really fretting. i tink i stood there for bout 20 mins.. if i am not wrong.. hahaz.. wah... this qn.. like almsot the whole class has no hint at all on how to tackle that qn lor.. hahaZ... after that.. everybody who went up to the board was like shivering or wad... hahaz... scared that they would make mistakes ba! haahZ...

hahaz.. after school, fel, cry and i went to queensway shopping centre.woAh... damn funny thing happened.. I was trying to listen to wad fel and crys were toking when we were walking towards the shopping centre... dne i suddenly fell down... and there was quite a loud thud.. if i am not wrong. hahaz .. and ya.. fel told me i screamed! ahhaz... hmm.. [i din even know dat i screamed] and the strangest thing was tat... i jsut fell down like this.. really sudden.. and fel and crys got a scare. hahaZ. so diu lian lor.. hahaz.. zheng ge ren tu ran jian pa zai di shang.. hahaz.. bet ppl walking behind us must be laughing their heads off.
hahaz.. it was my veyr first time there and i guess i really really like that place. hehez.. so many nice and cheap clothings... hehez.. and there are so many cute little shops that lined the alleys and such. hahaZ. had a great time looking at the earrings, skirts, blouses, necklaces and such. heheh. gonna save money sia.. hehe.. for prOm nite. wahahahZ. after tat we went to ikea. heheZ. [pig.. i bOught something for u.. wahhahaahZ.] went to search for suitable frames for teachers' day gift... hahaz.

oki.. dats all for today.. hahaz.. had a great time.!

Joan

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7:38 PM

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lol u just fell liddat? =x so scarie.. haha.. mrteoh is so scarie.. hahaha.. dunnoe wad to wear for prom night lehhx.. hmmmx.. don even knoe where it's held lo.. hahha.. take carreeee

By Seow Ting, at 8:31 PM

heyah,
dunno why lah, i cant see the whole thing, cant see the words ah, but briefly browse through and imagine i see the whole sentences ah...
heyarh, you left me out of the teoh whiteboard business issit?(not sure, cant see everything) well, i wasn't of much use then leh...
nvm
byebye cute pig

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Sunday, July 25, 2004

Cultural Pot has been a 'traumatic' night for all chOir members. I think that we have perfOrmed quite well in cOmparison to the last CP. We gained sincere and thunderous applause from the audience, and that is what i have been 'salivating' for ever since i became part of the big chOir family. whO is the oNe who allOwed vast improvement in chOir and gave us cOnfidence? yeS! it is oUr dear conductOr mr steAd! weLL, he is leaving us for goOd as he has gOt himself a permanent jOb at NIE. We managed to take a great leap from COP to a silver award at the SYF Central Judging. It is due to the hardwOrk of all Of us and oF cOz, mr stead played a significant role too. he is ever so patient with us, guiding us to the muscial wOrld where the real music lies. under the You-Know-Who, i dont think we will ever make it tO mark. soMemore, the You-Know-Who has got sore throat every single day. HoW cOuld she even teach other ppl sing when she herself canT sing?

Right after the performance, many of the girls cried. It was due to both mirth and sadness. We do nOt want mr stead to leave us. As yOu knOw, human beiNgs are emOtional creatures. It is heart-wrenching to let such a good conductor leave. tears streamed down all thOse petite faces. we hugged and consoled each other. Later on, some of us sat at the corridor outside our dressing room and sang the three songs again. peOPle might think that we were crazy, but we were just too indulged in singing i guess. I will alweez remember Mr stead, the man who created miracle. his mr bean's like image will alweez be imprinted in my mind. =)

yuPz.. this is my very last performance in chOir. I guess i will miss chOir. it was onLi til yesterday then i really found that being in the chOir is so much fun! This performance at UCC marks the end of my participation in choir. ='(

hahaz.. and yarh. I will never forget this gurl frOm sec three whO always calls me SeniOr instead of Joan. hahaZ. damN funny. 'senior, seniOr, sEniOr!' hahaZ. shOuld i call her jUnior? hahaZ.

happy ending!

:: I am glad that my mOm came to watch my last performance in chOir. hahZ. glad that she enjoyEd the second song, cOz i love that song too. _The muSic of the niGht_ I will never forget this song. This song reminds me of mr stead toO. tO me, mr stead is jUs like a father. and yArh. Stupid pIg. heheZ. thanz fOr cOming to watch CP for the secOnd time. hahaZ. i accept yOur critical comments, truly. thanz for rushing there on time. BUT next time PLS do not run like that k? It is too dangerous. { thOugh u are a good runner} I don not want anything to happen tO yOu k?::

Joan

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9:03 AM

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joan please.. your last paragraph very rou ma..

hahas. glad you enjoyed it. i believe the audience did too. <= i'll miss sj too~!

By feL, at 9:54 PM

for u...

i'd run forever.

love~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 10:10 PM

whoa...lang man neh! *gets goosebumps*

you know, the whole time i was singing music of the night, i was trying not to cry because the lyrics really reminded me of mr stead. especially 'help me make the music of the night'...T.T

and you made me choke on my dinner. mr. stead looks like mr bean. *chokes and dies of laughter*

I'll miss choir too...especially 'coz i got two juniors i always scold and nag one...weird ah? sec one hate choir until now, but now we miss it instead. really don't know how to appreciate something until it's gone.

and i'll rather DP (ong) coach the choir if we had to get You-Know-Who back.

By zx, at 6:52 PM

yea its jus so sad..but the performance was fab! =D We did mr stead and ourselves proud man...wheeee..i guess we'll all miss choir and mr stead but..its just the way things go...='( -yinmay =)

By Anonymous, at 7:53 PM

WAH LAU U TWO SUPER ROU MA *shudders*

By feL, at 10:42 PM

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Sunday, July 18, 2004

Joan

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Saturday, July 10, 2004

16 years, 2 months and 8 days have passed. This is how long i have lived in this world. thOugh my life has frequent uPs and dOwns, it is a life that i have learned to savour and taste ---- in the end, bitterness is removed while sweetness lingers on, filling the air with fragrance. every breath i take it maKes me feel fortunate. i am glad i am pink in health [thOugh i am fat]. i am glad i have quite a happY family with a lOvable, caring mOm. thOugh my siblings tend to get oN my nerves, they also play a huge rOle in my life. they make me smile, make me laugh and make me cry. numerous expressions are evoked out of me by them, they definitely vivified my life in a way or anOther. =)

as lOng as my heart beats, as long as i can see, as long as i can feel, as long as i can listen, as long as i can smell, as long as i can taste, i would want to contribute to this world in many ways.

=::I want to be a passenger train, one that is able to convey people of all walks of life to their destiny, to their goals and to their world of happiness. As i go round, i want to meet more friends, pick them up and know them, understand them.::=

this world is dynamic----ever changing---- and wad can we do besides deploying a coherent approach to embrace the changes? we just have to accept changes in life, be self- adapted and be conscious of what is going on. in this way, yOu will forever be satisfied. rendering a helping hand to a friend when in need, makes ones world more colourful, and you urself will feel that there is more meaning to life.

i have a few circles of friends. they have allowed me to know myself better and allowed me to sieve out the negative aspects in me. i mix around with different ppl... yuPZ.. everybody is different and unique in a different and interesting way. the results of socialising with different ppl, i manage to see different things in life.
whether is it sweet or bitter, i am oredi moulded to who am i.

the soi-disant 'paradise' truly exists when one knows how to go on with life despite failures and rugged terrains. yUpz.. one has to be acquaint with 'rugged terrains' one faces in life and walk on. iTs just like walking down a rAinbOw, whereby the end of the jouRney is a pOt of shimmering gOld. in life, the pOt of gOld is akin to mirth.

liFe is full of exuberance! all of us are still in the stage of germinating like a seedling. we need warmth, moisture and essential nutrients to keep us going.
Frigid the wind maybe, friable the soil may be, frangible the life may be, we must never be held back by anything... we must brace ourselves against all odds that erect out of our pathway.

+ when you feel down, take a stroll in the park, and let the light breeze pamper you+
+ when you feel hopeless, take a look at the night sky, the stars will give you hopes+
+ when you feel stupid, take a break from work, and scream out of your lungs the magical words 'i am not stupid!'+
+ when you feel bOred, take a walk on the white and sandy beach, and listen to the waves that crushes on the shores, they do tell you something+
+ when you feel sad, take a look a those less fortunate, and think of thOse kids in africa etc, and you will knOw what is 'being fortunate.+

be sated with ur fate, but improve whenever u have the space!~

=)

* bIG biG thanz to ppl who always leave comments at my blOg! thanz a lot! danke schoen!!!!! -muacKz- esP to ppl like stUpid pig, marie, fel, mC, yy and etc etc.. heheZ... lUv yA!

Joan

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12:45 PM

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yup. cant agree more with what you said abt life. so meaningful. this entry inspires me man. =D take care and i'll post comments until u ask me to stop! -yayun

By Anonymous, at 6:45 PM

Life is here forever and a day.
It may leave a burden or debt for one to pay.
Lost without love nowhere to be found.
I find myself searching for a soul mate all around.
Once found, no longer lost.
Life has already taken a large cost.
No matter what you will forever be in my heart.
If our love stands to be true not even life can tear us apart.

~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 7:00 PM

hmm.. nice entry.. guess i juz have to keep on shouting and scream my lungs out saying that i m not stupid.. ha..a realli meaningful entry i guess.. help me to know how to cope wif sadness n such..ha.. thankz joan! :) marie

By Anonymous, at 4:35 PM

*huggs. you use de words very cheem siaZ. =P hahas. i dunnoe what to say really. but glad you're thankful and all. <=

By feL, at 9:36 PM

Hi. Don't Step On Me Anymore, Okay?
Hahahahahaha.
Just Kidding.
From...
*gives mysterious smile*
You-Know-Who (not Voldemort)

By Anonymous, at 8:47 PM

soo inspiring. ^^ Life's amazing weee

By Anonymous, at 8:13 PM

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Friday, July 09, 2004

hmm.. to that question on whether i am really happy or not.. i tink i am half happy and half unhappy ba.. hahaZ... -_______---

yuPz.. These few days, i have become lamer. Well, maybe it's just to cover up the real me ba... I am actually very stressed. Being lame and laughing out loud make me feel better and forget about exam stress. I am afraid of the forthcoming grade eight piano exam, the prelims and of coz... Os!!! I tink i have a lot of things that i need to cope with. I am no jellyfish which has uncountable tentacles. I wish i could multi-task in a more efficient way.... yuPz.. can soon.. gonna stay back quite often for badminton tournament.. hOpe i wont let 4/3 down... siGhz... long time NEVER practise le.. hahahZ... upcoming events for me are as followed... [ badminton tournament, piano practical exam, CT, Chinese Exam, Prelims and O levels] hahaZ.. if i can survive at the end of this hectic yr... I tink it would most probably be a miracle!

I really wonder, wad if one day i just suddenly blacked out and say goodbye to this wonderful world. well.. guess the earth will stil be spinning and everybody will still be as happy as ever. sO much pressure is exerted on me... including my piano teacher.. siGhz... whenever i see the faces of certain teachers, i am really 'horrified' in a way. They make me think of exams. Exams really make ones hair stand. hahZ.

If i crap a lot these few months.. pls pardon me... I am trying to relieve stress.. I swear, after O levels, i will 'wreak havoc' and enjoy life.

I am happy coz i have stupid pig and my mom and of coz.. my dear frenz. hehZ. {first few entries... oredi mentioned some liaoz.. so here... heheZ... ]Thanz Stupid Pig.. for always being there for me. you have played a huge role in my current life and thanz for accepting me for wad I am. thOugh sometimes yOur actions and words are really silly.. i tink that they are really cute and of coz... they never fail to brighten up my day. hahZ. whenever i hold your hand, i feel really secure and comfortable. thanz for letting my pinch your cute nose almost everyday and thanz for letting me 'beat' you.. hahaZ... if yOu tink that i am bad to you... pls say so.. k? heheZ...

Joan

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7:38 PM

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wah sO rOu ma!lOls bud u all veh sweet nehx hahax..suPerwOman jOan!ur timetaBle veh tiGht nehx.gamBatte wOrs!u kan gif up cOs we nv gif up on u q: [.shall.]

By Anonymous, at 10:15 PM

i'll say it again...yr the best i'll ever have...
i jus wan u to b happy... sorry for being realli wang ba dan sometimes... thx for the making all the sacrifices for me... noe u express yr love thru 'beating' me...haha...'patting'??? hmmm... anyways...i jus wanna say i love u n i hope i can love u even more in the time to come... cuz i wish to walk this raod wif u all the way to the end...

n if u'd ask me do i love u this much, i do.
~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 11:34 PM

aww.. so mushy.. blow it all in this blog. just dun think too much. you'll do well in your exams. jia you! wanna see your bright smile everyday yea? mums are the best! they'll always be there for you.. hehez. super mum. when u're sad tell your blog your worries and your problems will be halved. when you're happy, tell everyone your happiness and it'll be doubled. =] take care! -yayun

By Anonymous, at 8:44 AM

yups. i understand how that feels again. come to think of it, i'm lame because i'm trying to hide that me? and then everyone sees me as that girL with the bright smile and happy cheerful feL. but am i really that me?

but i hope you ain't like me yah. just wrote on my blog about my dream. i was so super stressed that i dreamt of doing a physics paper, yet only able to complete 8 mCQs in 2.5hrs. Totally freaked me out. that's why now i fear. i wanna work hard. but no discipline. no motivation. really need someone to push me on, to make me study, to study with me and whatever right now. need good advice. [searches for the right soul]. okay this is supposed to be about you.

once again, i love you. <= don't worry, i won't snatch you away from your stupid pig. i'm just on the standby mode, remember that i'm always here whenever you need me. *huggs-

By feL, at 9:39 PM

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Sunday, July 04, 2004

hahaZ... another nonsensical entry.. no la.. kinda bored... [actually.. is very bored... bored to tears... bored to death]

hmm... dunnoe wad to write oso.. but guess... i just have to crap ba.

Firstly, just wanne tell Fel not to be sad anymore.. k? heheZ. Joan pig will alweez be there for you if you need me.. hahahZ... In my heart, you are oredi as good as the angel in the heaven.. heheZ. =)

Secondly, jsut wanne thank my mom for all that she has done for me all these yrs! She rOCks! heheZ. thOugh sometimes she behave like a little kid.... well.. i tink she is stil a great mom. She has helped me a lot in life... and i guess.... i will alweez take care of her as long as i live! =)

Thirdly, these few days, i have started thinking about life after sec 4... siGhz.. sad thing sia.. make me wanne cry... everyone will be heading towards their dream JCs.. almost everyone will be separated... Faces will no longer be the same anymore.. everything will become as strange as it was in the beginning... siGhz.. M gonna do wadeva i can for everyone when i stil have the ability and time.. =)

lastly.. i tink i must really push myself to work harder.. hard hard hard! I want to get 10 distinctions! wahahahhZ. [dreaming again sia] hahaZ. anyway... nothing is impossible! hahaZ>

Joan

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5:22 PM

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heyy dear. thanks! (: love yOu~

hee.. 10 distinctions isn't impossible! i'm getting 9! jia you together okies? =D

By feL, at 6:06 PM

wow... 10 dist.. for u i tink itz possible. ha.. for me, i'll make do with 3 ha.. ;)

By Anonymous, at 8:12 PM

[shall] daes paSs slOwly bud mOnths fly by. >_< veh faRnie. leavinG guides and nHss sOon. leaving mOnstry of enjOyment sOon. T_______T

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