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Saturday, June 26, 2004

siGhz.. I am bored to tears these few days. I kinda wasted my time, letting time gushed by me like running water. oh man!!! I feel so disgusted by myself. yUpz.. sOmetimes, i feel so run down, til I tink i can hear faint calls from the heaven. hmm.. maybe when i get there, all my sorrows will be expunged? no more worries? I hate my life. I still feel very lost, as if I am standing in a never-ending highway. There's no way I can search my way out.. I have lost my ray of light. I feel like there are hundreds of stars twirling round my head. My eyes are heavy. I am no longer as energetic as b4.. I feel that my eyes are loaded with 100 tonnes of tears that are waiting impatiently. I need to cry out loud. YUpz.. my cheeks went wet a couple of days ago. yUpz.. I feel so ..
anyway.. sometimes.. i tink the world is unfair.. well.. the world is never fair.. i am stupid, hideous, crazy and etc etc.. all the bad things fall on me.. sometimes i feel tat god is playing a fool with me.. hahaZ. yuPZ.. i am really a foOl. sad to say. I regret being myself. I regret being a human being.

If i am a flower, my petals are dropping off, gone with the wind.
If i am a cloud, i am slowly being engulfed by the sun's powress rays.
If i am a grass, i am turning yellow and parched.
If i am a river, i am slowly drying up.
If i am a human being, my heart is gonna stop beating soon...

okie.. i know tis is a very crazy entry by me.. I also dunnoe why i am toking such things. I am not exactly sad... but the deep inner me is yelping hardly for someone to save me out of this dark hole. til the day i really see the light, will be when i am actually happy... siGhz..

Sorry ppl.. nth really happened out of the blue.. but.. i just have something that is building up in my mind and soul... and it is killing me.. suffocating me... So.. pls dun worry bout me k? guess i jsut need to write something like this to vent my anger?!?! hahahZ.. dunnoe... hOpe u ppl will never read this entry..

Joan

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11:05 PM

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too late! i read it! cheer up k? i guess u're feeling this way coz of sch tml.. well.. we have to face up to reality no matter how yucky it is. hahahax. just don take things too seriously, smile, and it'll be over. (i hope.) heehee. jiayou alright...

By Seow Ting, at 9:50 PM

wat r u worryin about?
if nth then dont think too much
try to be the old cheerful joan k?

By Anonymous, at 12:21 AM

don't worry it's very normal.. one day you'll come back.. i know that. hahas. sometimes out of the blue i feel the same. in school i always appear like nothing's going on in my life except studies and studies but deep inside i feel empty. from time to time i'll feel mad and crap up an entry about how i seriously feel in me. don't believe you can read my archives. suddenly will have something very sentimental and emotional..

things will be fine.. just.. be yourself.

By feL, at 5:43 PM

im always there ...ill find a way to 'save' u i promise.
it hurts me to noe that u r goin thru this.
haiX... i jus hoped i could love u more n make u happier... sorry for not being able to b a 110% bf.
but ill try n try till i get there.

love~+upi!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 2:27 AM

wei wei wei .. u are hideous den i wad.. i bet iz because at home ur mirror is broken or sth..datz y u tink this way.. so rubbish.. god made everyone of us special n unique.. yet, u r downgrading urself..cannot liddat ok. .muz learn to treause urself, no matter wad u look lyke(btw u dun lyke ugly lor) u muz tink, so mani ppl are much uglier or are less fortuante den u.. so cherish wadeva u have ok.everyone is different n special in their own way. remember this... u are a fren sent to me from god, a good one too.. dun wu liao wu liao downgrade ureself ok.. ren yong yuan bu hui wan mei de. no onez perfect in this world. but u are near to perfect! i m annoynomous, go guess who i m if u hav the time.. but dun waste time okiez.. tata!ha

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Friday, June 18, 2004

hmmm...I reaLLy enjOyed myself fOr the past fOur dayS. Surprisingly, I did nOt have any 'bus sick'. hahZ. weiRD. nOrmally, I will keeP feeling nauseous oN boArd. sO.. this trip is cOnsidereD smOoth-sailing fOr me. hahAz.. iF nOt.. stuPid pig wiLL have whOle lOts of trOubles. ~phEw~
I shaLL highlight a few interesting stuffs abOut this wOnderfuL triP.

=LakE chini=
this is a reaLLy beauTiful lake. it is a placid lake with cattails and distributed growth of other water plants. as the 'speed' boat carassed the surface of the water, the breeze was so welcoming, pampering my face that was so sticky at first. The air was balmy, with a tang of sea in it. yeah.. the boat ride was definitely comfortable and fun. Here and there, we could see lotus flowers craning their necks above the surface of the calm and slate- coloured water. There was a most scenic spot where the water was filled with lotus. [ What a beauty!] First time in my life, I reached out to a stalk of lotus that is half-bloomed and plucked it out of the water. My face literally flushed with delirium. It is my very first time in my life to get so close to these lovely flowers. ha. Believe or not.. I almost sprang up from my seat and and asked stupid pig to take a pic of me standing on the boat. hahaZ. [luckily i managed to suppress myself.. haha.. if not.. the whole boat will capsize!]Den we went to visit the Orang Asli's settlement.. at there... we tried the blowpipe thing. Quite a fun stuff. I tried it once. hahZ.. we are supposed to blow the dart thingy and to aim at a board. as usual, i embarrassed myself again. Ha. the dart flew half way den dropped dead. nvm.. had fun anyway. =P

=SunriSe?=
Ha... next day.. at 4:30 am.. everyone woke up with sleepy eyes.. so that we could manage to reach the top of a hill to witness the beauty of the sunrise. HA. We din make it in time.. [too bad..] but nvm.. I managed to climb up to the submit of the hill... thanz to stupid pig. ;) ha. yupz.. to me.. i tink the process was kinda tedious. It was my first time hiking ba.. so... it really exhausted my body. hahaZ. i was sweating like crazy and heart was beating really hard... but i guess it is worth it ba. reaching the top.. heh.. was quite an achievement to me. haZ. goOd morNing exercise. I din regret. [thanz stupid pig!] yupZ.. the surroundings was veiled with mist and fog.. quite a beauty. =P the air was fresh too. =)

=Fireflies plus shooTing star!=
woohoOOo!!! Cant believe reading my subtitle? yupZ. i really saw a shooting star when we were cruising along the river. hahaZ.. Stupid pig and I witnessed it together and we were literally went into rapture. haz. Exhilerated til we almost forgot to make a wish. heheZ. I was concetrating really hard looking at the inky sky that was adorned with twinkling stars. First time.. the sky was lit up with those tiny bits of diamonds. Wad a night! We were waiting at the river bank VERY patiently for the boats to come back. woAh.. it was not easy to wait VERY patiently.. so many mosquitoes bit me. OMG! One even bit my butt.. hahaZ.. Tico Mosquito. hahAz. it was damn humid too. As usual, i was sweating like mad and was getting frustrated. At the river bank, there was a tree that was full of those little sweetie fireflies. I caught one in my hand but let it fly off immediately.. scared later it die. yupz.. den we captured some fireflies and put them into a plastic bottle. damn nice sia. hahaZ.. they were even kidding.. saying that 'You Deng Du Shu Le!' hahaZ. so funny. =D Fireflies... really nice...! hOpe my wishes will come true. ;)

=PlantatiOn=
heeZ.. this is anOther great and interesting place. Saw loTza durian trees, star fruit trees and etc etc. quite fun. yuPz.. sat a tram thingy and went round the plantation that was like dunnoe how many hundred hectares big. den we went to a place where there were ostriches and camels. hahaZ. fOUr hungry ostriches and two lazing camels. Wah! When i was feeding one of the ostriches, it almost bit me! wad a biG mouTh it has! hahaZ. den Kenny was disturbing one of them. hahaZ.. in the end, it got angry. hahaZ. yupz.. stupid pig thinks that the ostriches are suffering from malnutrition, coz their butts do not have much feathers! hahaZ.. kinda hideous looking.. hahaZ.. but nevertheless.. all animals are cute to me! =P

=Shopping centre=
after goin to the plantation, we went to a big shopping centre. hehZ.. we were given ample amount of time to shop la.. but stupid pig and i did not really shop. hahaZ. no interest in shopping. so we just took a walk in the centre. Den saw many frenz and mOns. hahAz. Ha.. tink i am kinda blur. Stupid pig and i walked into a shop where they sell all those earrings, hair accessories and morsals.. Den he bought me one pair of earrings. heheZ.. niCe wor.. Actually got meaning one.. buden i din realise... dat he bought for me as our third month together gift!!! AHhh!!! see how stupid am i!? siGh... sorry stupid pig! den we continued walking.. walk walk walk.. den he bought another pair of earring for me.. hahAz. Den i feel kinda bad... coz i din buy anything for him.. so we walked into a shop by the name of "Factory Outlet". heeeZ.. i bought a sweater for him. hahaZ. he caught a cold ma.. feel very cold.. dats why.. heheZ. den we went to Starbucks to drink something and sat there.. chat chat chat.. until time's up. ha.

=Salted fish factory=
hmm... it is quite a refreshing place to go to. hahaZ. coz.. i have never visited any anywhere. heheZ. Saw a tamed buffalo... so ke ai. of coz... i itchy hands.. went to stroke it. heheZ. Its hair.. very coarse sia. Guess it must be feeling damn irritated coz there are soooo many flies flying around it. cute! took pics of it. den we went to see the process of making salted fish. omg.. it kinda smell quite awfully but i could stil withstand it.. ~pheW~

hahaZ.. overall.. this trip was quite fruitful la.. hehez.. esp for me and stupid pig.. [you say one rite? hahaZ.] hmm.. i bought a kite tat cost 10 ringgit. hahaZ. We went to a beach that is very beautiful with all those rock formations. heheZ. took a couple of photos there. nice sia.. heheZ.. sea breeze has been so welcoming.

Joan

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10:31 AM

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ahhaX...nice summary sia...post this on the web then no body wan to go kuantan liaoX...ahhahX...
yups...i had a realli realli great time wif u thru out the whole journey...
love,~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 12:19 AM

hola. =] Glad that you've enjoyed urself. take care. ^^ luve, ym

By Anonymous, at 12:46 PM

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Sunday, June 13, 2004

woaH~~ watCHed eUro2oo4 yesterday night.. [this mOrning]hahaZ. weLL... thiNk the match was nOt very interesting sia... makE me fall asleep. GreecE vS. PortugAl.. i thOught PortugAl will win.. bUt the results iS that Greece wOn Portugal by one goAl! kinDa disapPointing.. cOz.. i tot Portugal is a very good soccer team. hmm.. tOnight shOwing England vS. France.. but.. toO bad.. cannOt watch liaO.. coz tmr have to wake up very early to gO schooL! siGHz.. nvm.. heh.. I dunnOe whO to suppOrt.. coz.. i tink bOth englAnd and France are not bad.. =P

yay~ tmr gOing kuanTan liaoz.. geeZ.. so happy. =)
hOPe the weather will be fine sO that everything wiLL be carriEd out smOOthly. =)
*prAy haRD man~*
hahaZ... gOnna bring a small luggage that is 17" by 13"... [not big rite? issit?]
hOpe i wOnt be laugh by other pPl.. thOugh i knOw i will be.. hahaZ.=P
reasOns fOr bringing a luggage instead of a bag:-
1. I want to be systematic.. bringing a bag.. very troublesome... have to rummage thrOugh the whOle bag to find one stupid thing.
2. Easier to manage... heheZ.
3. Easier to carry it.. no no... easier to move it round coz can pull it.. need not exert a greater force.

grRRr... my bro and sis are really driving me crazy... dOnt understand... they are nOt far away frOm one anOther.. i really wonder whether they are deaf oR not man.. if nOT.. tink i WILL be the ONE who will be deaf soOn. =X

hahaz.. yesterday sOmething funnY happened. I went to my grandpa's second bro's son's wedding ceremony... [at his house].. hahZ.. den i went there with my two idiotic siblings, without my parents coz they are now overseas. So.. As i was eating, one of my aunties asked me... 'Ni de da nü er zai na li?' I was dumbfounded by this simple yet weird qn. I was like... 'hUh?' Den she said, 'Wo hai yi wei ni hai you yi ge da nü er... Ming jiao Shu shen me de.. Ta wei shen me mei you lai?' Ha... Everybody started laughing... I laughed too.. omG>>> she thOught I am my MOther!!! hahahahZ... was trying to ask where have I GONE TO... oMG.. do i really resemble my mOm so much.. until i will be mistaken as her? hahahZ..

[shUt yOUr gap la.. idiOts!*stupid siblings]

Joan

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1:58 PM

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ahahX!!! funny sia...
yups got to agree...if both of u had the same hairstyle u all will b identical..ahaX
love,~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 2:40 PM

LOLs people say you old larhZ. =P
my kOr was watching eurO2oo4 last night also.. he said it was darn boring.. LOLs!

kuantan!! havent pack!!

By feL, at 3:01 PM

[[beiKe]] sOccer *bliNks* hees..takkaiRe and haf fun in m'Sia wOrs ^-^

By Anonymous, at 2:27 PM

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Saturday, June 12, 2004

Had a shOrt chat wiTh marie
Heard that her hAmster died
And said that her hamster has gone to hamster heaven
Which is a blessing in disguise

yuPs
it is quite true
Heaven
is a nice place to go to
a place where only peace prevails
no entangled thoughts
no mixed feelings
no worries
no sorrows
no woes
Serenity-- the besT

i want to be an angel
who wears white
who plays within the fluffy clouds
that look like cotton candy
i yearn to fly to the clouds one day
to meet the angels
i shall join them
in their job
by blessing all my friends

world is getting so crazy
so bizzare
can i take it?
i want to find a place where i can rest my daunted soul and perplexed mind
and that place would be the heaven
the mighty heaven

so if one day i really disappear from this world
please look at the sky wherever you go to
you may see me waving to you
in my white and silky angelic gown
i will be waving between felicity and happiness
coz i will be in mirth
seeing all my friends being blessed

i will rise with the sun
and even when the moon hangs high
i will still be there
brightening up the dark sky
i may become a star
that shimmers and sparkles
so that the night will be livened up
no more fear
no more loneliness

heaven will be my home. =)
so now u know why i love to look at the sky...?

Joan

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12:01 AM

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if one day you leave before telling me...
or i leave before telling you...

please remember this...

I LOVE YOU.

By feL, at 12:27 AM

Lolx, you wanna wear the starched white choir dress to heaven? Sounds great rit? No need to buy one when you are up there.. Diao.. What am I toking bt.. Anyway, when u'r there, pray for me...

By Anonymous, at 12:55 AM

have fun when u're in heaven... hahaz... sorry dunno what to write, but since i have to write for u, have fun in heaven, ya?? =P so crappy...

By Anonymous, at 1:00 AM

btw, tt was mi!! enjoy urself in heaven!! =P ^wei_ting^

By Anonymous, at 1:06 AM

hmmm...how do u know that heaven is all so great...???[not trying to insult it or wadsoeva...issit because theres absolutely nth there?{no this no that...}]
haiX...yes i agree that the world is getting realli cruel n all the hatred is eating into us...
but is that all exists in the world...???...is there no love???[where is the love yo]

enough bout that...i qoute-

"i want to be an angel
who wears white
who plays within the fluffy clouds
that look like cotton candy
i yearn to fly to the clouds one day
to meet the angels
i shall join them
in their job
by blessing all my friends"

well...i jus got to say that u are already an angel who bless all yr friends...
to me[n i believe every who knows u]...u have blessed our hearts with yr brightest smile...
u are already an angel[disguised as joan koh] who lives in our hearts...

i would nvr wan to live the day to see u go...
love,
~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 10:31 AM

yups. agree with ttL. remember how i told asked you about meeting yourself when you said you wanna go heaven to meet the angels?

you. joan koh. an angel. no whatever who you are.

you're still my best friend. (:

By feL, at 2:27 PM

hey joan, neva expected our casual conversation to be an inspiration for ur blog ;). yes, heaven iz a nice place indeed, all ur worriez, troublez, sorrowz will all be lifted away.the earth may be fatally unrealistic,be it a cauldron of liez n untruthz. but for now, earth is juz fine, so perish all thoughtz of goin heaven yet huh. but if u are, dun forget to bring me there!! if u dun, i dun fren u le..ha.. ok, may cookie(my hamster) rest in peace. btw, u could consider being a poet ;) u'll be a remarkable one!!
wif luv - marIe

By Anonymous, at 10:34 PM

[beiKe] hees.frOm trOy/xian's niCk --> everything iS mOre beautiful becOs we are dOomed tO die.tink abOut it..there are mOre advantaGes beinG on eaRth.u can liSten tO ur diScman, be with ur fRens, uSe the net, run on sand etC etC. there are onli clOuds up dere and we will be fOrevur lOoking dOwn. sO we shd cheRish every mOment wif our lOved one!white gets bOring after a while q:

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Thursday, June 10, 2004

wOah~ this whOle weeK, i havE beeN goinG to schOol maN. hahaZ. is this a hOlidaY?! hahaZ.. hmm.. ChoIR has beeN learniNg new songs to prepare for Cultur Potpourri. I tink we are mOst prObably singIng fOur sOngs. [Adiemus][Barbershop Blues][The Music of The Night][?!] hahaZ.. the last one has nOt been decided yet. oh goSh... goNna wear the uGly chOir gOwn again.. Mine is sOOOo biG loR... grrr... and almOSt everyOne loOks horrendous in it.. i am nO exception. hahaZ.

oF all these sOngs mentiOned above, i thInk i liKe the muSic of the nIght. heheZ. a nice and sootHing sOng and chOir will try itS best to sing it oUt very niceLy. =) bArbErshOp bLUes is a simPLe and cute sOng. kinda kIddY... thOugh its title is BarbersHOp blues... iT has NOTHING got to do with barbershop... weird rite? hahaZ.
Adiemus is a damn nICe soNg too.. i lUV it. hehZ. sOunds reAlly majestic i tink.

somEthing funNY happened jUSt now. I was takinG buS 963 wiTH hWee on oUr way hOme fRom schoOl after chOir. i was listening to songs while hwee was in hEr dreamlAnd. suddenly i saw this gUy [in his forties, pluMp, with a pair of extraordinary big spectacles]hE looked really eccentric. the funny thing is that, he was talking to Himself!!! he gestured quite wildly, pointing to the space of air beside him, as if chatting with a fren.. there was absolutely no one beside him lor.. is like.. he was talking to nobody and I guess other pPl were also puzzled by his actions. Ppl sitting behind him were looKing at hIm, giving tt type of 'what is this guy doing here?' face. hahaZ. so gaO siAo. i really wonder what was he doing man.. donT tell me he is talking to sOme 'livIng thinG'!! =X

a gentle reminder to pPl who Are goIng to KuantAn:-

1- plEase remember to bring yOur passpOrt oN thAT day.. dUn forget!!
2- please remember to briNg the white card thingy which yOU have to fill in all the blanks!
3- please remember to brIng ringgit ah.. hahaZ.

Joan

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2:13 PM

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hahaas. looking forward to your performance! ^_-

thanks for ur kind reminder =P don't me like me wOrs.. remind others liaos then ownself forget =x

By feL, at 3:57 PM

[[haM cEe]] muSic of the nite.sOUnds veh stylO wOrs! (n_n)V can seC fOurs gO see cultural?din c ani wen we went at seC tu wOrs..hOpe can gO C: gamba at chiOr!dRink mOre herberl t tO sOof ur thrOat.hees..*huGs*

By Anonymous, at 8:41 PM

drINk lotsa H2o pigster!...
im sure choir will b great!!!
~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 9:35 PM

i m sure choir will b lots better than the last cultural pot. =)

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Sunday, June 06, 2004

hmmm.. thIs mOrning woke uP aT 6.30 aM. diD sOme wOrk, aTE breaKfASt and thEn weNt oUt at bOut 9 tO meeT stUpid pIg at cOmmOnwealtH mrT statIoN. wE are supPosed tO meeT at teN. heheZ. i was a bIt late [five mins laTe] cOz i haVe to waiT vEry lOng fOr the traInS to cOme. uGh~

tHe sUN was sO daMN hOt wheN we reacheD eAst coAst pArk. hahhZ. nOw i am aLL buRnt. [roasted piG...@ nOon lEHz! hahaZ.. ] yUPZ.. wenT to rent a bicycle and he went to roller blade. hahaZ.. he kept faLLing dOwn. I was reaLly wOrried fOr him. kEpt turninG bacK tO lOok at hIm tO see whether he was behind me Or not... hahaZ.. we tried to fly the kIte. hmMmm.. he tried to fly it when he was rollar blading. iT woRked, even thOugh it did nOt flY hiGh. HOwevEr, the kIte seemed to lOse its lIfe aftEr we went to the beaCh tO flY it. hahahZ.. [okie.. hE was the One whO flew the kiTe la.. nOt me] hahahZ.. guess i Am jusT plain stuPid. =P

after dat we tOok a cAb to bedOk buS interchAnge... hahhaZ. [the bus 4o1 arhz... One hOur oNe stuPId buS.] we wenT tO kFC to havE ouR lunCh. hmmMm.. oRdered zinger buRGer meaL. and stuPId piG kepT takINg phOtOs of me wiTh my phOne.. uGh..~~ hhaZ. [jK]

woAH... after fiLling oUR empty stOmachs, we tOok the traIn tO clEmeNti. oMg.. EIGHTEEN staTions mAn. hahAZ. bUT it tOok oNli aBout 40 miNs. sO.. nOt so bOring. ~lucKilY~

we waLKed to thE swIMMing compLeX. wOah~ quite crOwded siA. hahAz. in a hOt day, the best thIng tO dO is tO go foR a swim. hehez.. buT tHe waTEr seemEd to bE veRY salTy. hahZ. dunNoe whY alSo. i tinK i onLi swam a few lAps toDAy. siGHx.. kiNda tireD. yESterdaY alsO wenT swimmIng wiTh wei tIng. swam bOut 10 laPz. hahZ. hmPh! Stupid piG tOld me twO guyS were pOinting at me and laughing at mE when i was swimming!!! agrr... hahaZ.. [lauGh lOr.. laTEr uR teeth drOp deN yOu knOw aRhz... hahaz.]

hahaZ.. nOw i am all red and kinda tanned. sO if yOu have read thIs entry... plZ dO nOt ask mE why my face is so red.. hahahZ. Everytime after a swim, my face will just go red.. i alSo dunnOe why. hahahZ. daTs aLL fOr tOday! heheX =)
-bTw-

saw one oLD couPle at ECP toDAy. woAh. thEy very ke ai and sWeet. thEy rented oNe douBle bIke[ er... i dunnOe what issiT called] anD theY cycled tOgether. thE cuTE thing waS thAT the oLD lady sheltered hiS old hubBy frOm the sUn with a reD umbrella. [i guess hE was the oNe whO waS cyclinG veRy vigorously ba.. cOZ.. nOrmally, the oNe sitTing in fRont hAs to cycle wiTH moRE strength] so ke ai! hahaZ. hAo xiAn mU woR! =) hOpe they wiLL enjOy themselves in theiR gOlden age.

Joan

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7:41 PM

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lOls zhen li hai sia.hees dOn gO out in sun tml le lehs!old cOuple reali veh zai *thUmb* dOn xian mu dem mah.cOs can be betta den dem q:

By Anonymous, at 8:30 PM

A Good Boyfriend is like a Computer...

I "ENTER" your life...
"SAVE" you in my heart...
"SCAN & FORMAT" your problems...
"COPY & PASTE" your kindness...
...and...
Never "DELETE" you from my memories...

~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 9:43 PM

a good friend is like a computer too (x

so sweeeeeeet. old couples. reminds me of your grandparents, somehow..

hahas.. u really so determined to jian fei wOrx. =p gambatteee~

By feL, at 9:46 PM

hahaha... red pig... lolx... sounds like a fun day... heehee...

By Seow Ting, at 5:02 PM

jia you in ur jian fei plan wor!! wahaha... behind u all e way!!!=P ^wei_ting^

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Friday, June 04, 2004

sOMe joYs are b3st
expreSsed in silEnce
As a sm!Le hOlds
mOre meanIng thAn a laUghter
I was askEd if I enjOyed knOwing yOu...
i jUz smiLed.
=)

jUz wannE thAnk everyOne whO i knOw fOr yOur lOve and cOncerN. [~danKe_scHön~]

tO my deaRest mOm:
i m reAlly glad tO b3 destinied tO be yOur daughter. In my heaRt, yOu ar3 the greAtest mOm ever in the whOle universe. u are eVer sO patIenT wHen iT coMes tO guidIng me onTo the riGht paTh. frOm th3 daY i was bOrn, yOu have beEn reAlly buSy wiTh me. yOu arE juSt like my teacher, my coach and my friend. yOU havE neveR usEd the caNe On me cOz yOu belieVe deEply in me, tat i wiLL make iT tO marK one day. yOu are simPly the gOd in my heaRt.

tO deaRie stUpid pIg:
hmmMm... i duNnOe what tO say abOut yOu man.. hahaX. yOu arE simPly a grEat bf. =)
I feEl reaLLy luCky to hAve yOu. yOu are reaLLy diffErEnt frOm oTHer guYs i gueSs. fat3 has bOught twO pigs tOgetHer sO i reAlly hOpe we wiLL have a wondrous timE tOgeTHer! hOpe thAt bOth Of us wiLL dO weLL in Os~.. heheZ.

tO feLz akA hipPo:
thAnx hippO. hahaZ. yOu have been a grEat friend who has played a greAt rOle in my seC liFe, causiNg a greaT impAct On mE! hahahS. [jk/ tOo exaggeratinG le] yeAh... wE are fAT, buT our hEarTs aRE noT fAt. hahaz... [get wAd i meaN?] heheX. hOpe that yOu and Him wiLL haVe a lOng lasTing freNship Or even... [ yOu shUd knOw la hOr?] hahaZ.
-CheErs-

tO verOnicA aka parrOt fish:
heheZ. sOrry if i hAve bEen toO mischievious at times. =p i juSt lovE 'irriTaTing' yOu i gueSs. yOu are alWays so optimistic and bright. brIght til caN brightEn uP my liFe. [go and bE a lighT bulb bA!] lOlz. jUst waNne thAnk yOu fOr uR never-endIng encOuragemeNt. tHanz foR spurrinG me tO gO oN tO striVe fOr beTTer resUlts. =muAckx= hehe.. [jk/i aM nO lesbIan k... hehe]

tO hweE aka koAla beAr:
yOz kOalA!havinG a grEat tiMe huGging the treEs? hahaZ. [jk]YoU havE beEn a marvellous freN. daTs whaT i caN saY bOut yOu. U are reaLLy versatile in maNy areas. [enviouS] hahahZ. [jk] ur bbAll skiLLs... reallY zAn~~ hahahZ. rOck on gAl! hehehZ.

to MariE ZHENG aka hAmhAm:
haz. i will never fOrget uR lameness mAn. hahZ. yOu reaLLy make me want to cry and lauGh at the sAme time. weLL, yOu have been a reaLLy nice fren. yOu have good characters, jusT tat yOu urself cant see tHem. heheX. jiA yoU fOr Os wOrs!!! -pAt pAt-

tO wOng weI piG:
Wei lAi de Da mEi nü! hahaZ... yOu have been a reALLy smArt gAL, Just thAt yOu aRE toO lazY le.. be moRE hardworking.. anD i thiNk yOu wiLL be aBle to soAr! heheZ. lUcks!

tO crysTal akA pinGU:
hEYz...i lIke yOur eyes. thEy are sO big and round and CRYSTAL clear. hahZ. yOu have beeN a goOd fren too, a goOd freN whO gives mE advice on relatiOnship. i AppreciaTE it a lOt. thaNz~!jIA yOu fOr Os!

tO the aBove pPl:
juST wannnE say a BIG BIG BIG BIG thanZ to yOu peePx again!! -arigaTo~ =)

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

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By Joan, at 6:37 PM

LOLs.. heyys pigletto i'm so honoured =D

thanks for being my great great friend too!! *muAcks~ heees.

why not fat hearts? LOLs.. u mean fat hearts as in an unhealthy heart arh? to me fat heart = big heart~! hahax..

ehh! sorrie lehs the prev note hohs.. is i type de.. but i deleted it.. cOs i was in ur account when i typed it =X hahas paiseh!

By feL, at 6:40 PM

I love you in the morning,
I love you at night
I love you when you're wrong
as much as when you're right.
I love you when you're up,
I love you when you're down.
I love you when you smile
and I feel bad when you frown.
I love all the ways
you show me that you care.
I love the safe warm feeling,
knowing that you're there.
I love you no matter
what you say or do.
And that's why
all you ever hear out of me,
is that I love you?
~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 9:28 PM

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Thursday, June 03, 2004

hmmm.. Tmr goin to Cineleisure to buy tiX for the clAss fOr the mOvie HarRY pOTter... hahA.. kINda lame la.. gO there jUs to bUy tiX. hMMmm.. mayBe cAn gO shOp a liTtle. iT wOuld bE stuPid tO shOp alOne la... buT it woulD be even mOre stupid if i were tO gO there, buY the tiX and gO hOme. wasTe tiMe siA. hmmmMMm.. wantED TO BuY A SLiNG BaG.. CoZ tHe presEnt onE is kindA olD le.. bUt.. nO baG seeMs to favOur me. hehe...

hMmmmm...goIng swiMMing with Wei Pig thiS sAt mOrning. hehe.. sO fUN. goNna trY swimmIng 10 laps at One gO! =sTupid pIg= whEn dO yOu wanne gO swimmIng agAin? huh? heh.. teLL me k?

hmmm.. tHis feW dAys feeL kindA nuMb..duNoe whY. weLL... hOpE i can finish uP my hOlz hOmewOrk bY the tiMe we gO kuAntan, sO that i cAn staRt reviSiOn afTer cOming baCk frOm kUantan. hAve to pia real hard Le.

hmmm.. tHInk i am gOing tO gO on a diet sOOn. gOing to stOp drinking soft drinks and all those sweet stuffs. goIng to stOp eatinG chOcolatEs. goIng to eat mOre fruits and vege. heheZ. thIs hOls is kinda bOring. tinK i gOing tO carRy on witH my maths and bIo hOmewoRK for nOw. hehe.. mayBE goin to do the Chinese worksheets daT teAcher juS gAve us. hOpe it dosEn rain later... wAnne plAy bbAll.. sian.. alOne again... hahahaz... i haVe becOme a Lone rAngEr! wahahahAZ.

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

11:38 AM

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For u:-
Yesterday is gone
today is here
tomorrow is near
and I will never
fear
As long as you are near

~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 12:04 PM

haha... swimming very fun horhx... hehe...
oh yar, dont piah too hard horhx... midyr aready win me liaoz... olevels cannot win..! =P hahahax... jk larx... we jiayou together... haha... *_*

By Seow Ting, at 3:41 PM

LOLs.. seOw arhs.. what cannot win u in O Levels.. act cute arhs u =PppP kidding larhZ~

yupps joan and seOw let's jia you together [x

hmms.. joan dun haf to apologise for me crying when i read your blog larhs! LOLs u so cute.. is your blog and my tear glands marhs =P

By feL, at 9:45 PM

hahax.. gO faR eaSt. miNi tOon de baG nt veh gOod quality dOu cheap ba.. ulu plaCe de baG de beSt hees cOs cheap and niCe ^___^

By Anonymous, at 9:50 PM

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Wednesday, June 02, 2004

lOve
is
such
a
painful
thing.
I have never reaLLy experienced thAt, cOz normally is all crushes.. just crushes... not the type that you really sink deep in. i Hope i will never have to undergo any pain in my love life. yuPz.. Love is just an empty wORd. oNly the time spent together can make the word 'lOve' a significant and lovely word.wHenever anyboDy breaK up with his/her gf or bf, one is bOund to endure some stinging pain that will most probably last lonG...

hmmm.. my mOm asked me this qn todaY. " What if HE wants to break up with you one day?"

I was stumbled. I did not know hOw to ansWer her qn. Maybe i will cry until i go blind? Or maybe i will just let it go and take it easy and carry on with my life as per normal? I really dont know. =X

It is not that I am a pessimist or wad... but.. hOw faR a cOuple can gO really depends oN fate. Anything that happens will take ur love ones away or make you two drift apart. The lOve between theM will then fade, leaving the word 'lOve' as dull as befORe.

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

9:44 PM

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ya. i agree. love hurtz
-hamham

By Anonymous, at 10:07 PM

bu zai hu tian chang di jiu
zhi zai hu ceng jing yong you
hahahax. itx not how long, but how deep, how sweet, how blissful, and how xing fu. when itx over, let it be, no use holding on. have faith in ur relationship. im sure the two of you will last as long as erm, ever. hahax =] jiayou~~ share smth nice wif you.
*when the eagles forget how to fly
and it's twenty below in july
and when violets turn red
and roses turn blue
i'll be still in love with you*

By Seow Ting, at 10:11 PM

love u with all my heart...i dun care wad pple think bout us...this is jus bout u n me...k???...dun worry too much dear,life's too short to worry it away...
hurts me to see u sad...

for u:
If love asks a question, do not deceive
For the truth is the answer, I only believe

If my heart should open, love do not fear
Or if my eyes in happiness shed a tear

Let the wind in my soul blow you away
And the sun in my heart brighten your day

If love and life I was asked to compare
Both of these with you I wish to share

LOVE U ALWAYS~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 11:32 PM

yeahh.. think about what ur stupid pig said yarhhs..
like i've scolded u not to care abt what others think.. harLoeee.. you're the one in relationship, not them, not those who dun even know u..

By feL, at 9:54 PM

goNgLet, luv doesnt depend on FATE. thatxz rubbish. it solely (well, largely) depends on yourself. the way you see things in life and so on. so please, dont open that door of 'what if's, cos it doesnt close easily. just treasure what you have at present, and embrace your luv. okie?
-piNgu.

By Anonymous, at 8:30 PM

>_< aGree with pinGu orhs.its de diStanCe of the heaRt tt cOunts.C: and nth xCept u can make tt lOve end C: [[beiKe]]

By Anonymous, at 8:07 PM

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hmmm.. Yesterday has been a bORing day...Nevertheless, I think i hAve learnt sOMething ba. heh.. yuPX.. went to schOol fOr the enG cOurses set Up by our eNglisH teACHers. I attended the Aguementative Essay Writing course by Mrs SiM in thE mOrning. hmmMmm..It was kinDA bOring la, cOz i Have nEver intended to attempt any aguementative questions in sec life! *thanz tO stuPid p!g* hahaz. jus kidding. luCKily stiLL have sI yuAn, crYs and Chun fOng witH me... iF not.. i can rOT to death le. =)

After the 8-10 coUrse, we had a half an hour break. Then we attended mRs Harvard's couRse on Narrative Essay Writing. hehe.. It was kinda interesting I think. I kinda enjOyed myself. hahaZ...I was laughing aLL the way loR.. thanz to Mrs HArvard's hysterical laughter. Fiona and I were laughin our head off due to her laughter.. So CUte! hahaz.. and stupiD pIg was stOning aLl the way.. hahaz.. soRRy.. shOuldnt haVe askEd yOu to cOme to SchOol... =X

After these courses, I went hOme.. BouGht lunCh for my bro and sis. WOAH~~ cAnt stAnd thEm man!!! They are so noiSy lor!! When they 'talk', they seemed to be hundred milEs apaRt likE dAt, must sHOut one! So... they shOut here sHout there, like nobOdy's business, as if they are in their own wORld. oF coZ, i 'retaliated' by shOuting 'SHuT UP~~' .... sAD to say, iT was Of nO use.. haha.. The cacophony of shoutings continue.. UGh~~ whAt can I say? THey are still littlE children who are sO immatured. hOw i wish I can creAte sOme magical pOtiOn tO make them dumb fOr an hOur oR sO.. hahaZ.. sO dat i will have a peaceful time doing hoMewOrk.

My maid has gOne baCk to IndonesIa fOr a hOliday. siGh.. sO... oF cOz i have to help out wiTh the hOusechOres. I dUn mind la, dOing hOusewOrk is quIte fun toO. hehe.. sO, after washinG up tHE dishes and clearing my rabbit's (charcoal's) pOo.. i went to take a nap. DunnOe why. I felt realLy lethargiC. dUN even hAve the slighTEst energy tO pick uP the pen to do hOmewOrk. SO, in the end, i Slept like a pig fOr about one and a half hOur.

+:::::::::::+

hMmm.. I am very excited oVer the forthcOming Kuantan fiEld trIp. heheZ... hOpe i caN leArn nEw thIngs. iTs goOd tO experience difFerent things. hOpe the weather will be fine when we are there.. dun wanne any stupid weather to ruin our intinerary.. =C *pRay hArd* =sTupiD pIg= yOu better sTick to me when we are at kUantan arhz.. if NOt. u wil get it frOm me! wahahahZ! (jk) hoPe the Kuantan trIp wiLL be a fUn one!

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

9:44 AM

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it'll be fun larhss! although dun haf me =PpP *bhb*
hahas.. i wasted my time @ the situational writing..
oh man.. cannot stand it.. been slacking so much arhs me.. u wanna do hmwk then lock yourself in the room!! hahaaas =P

By feL, at 10:47 AM

hahahax.. little bro and sis. better than elder bro mahx. he alwaes bully me one. =[ hmmmph. hahahax. wish i had attended narrative instead of summary. =\ hahahax. nvm larx. summary ok lorx. wanted to slp. =P lolx. kuantan trip~ you'd better come find us or you'll turn into a roasted pig! =X later ur stupidpig come and find me then i die..... hahahax.

By Seow Ting, at 10:50 AM

cross my heart,i will stick to u like GLUE!...n will accompany u to go find yr friends ba...see...i so good...ehheX...will follow u everywhere other than girls tiolet...hahahX..so dun worry...k???...
hugs n kisses!!!
~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 3:48 PM

actualli, dis is tehnei here. mi no blog acct yet( too lazi to get 1) haha, mi got nothin much too sae. juz wish u and ur tl liang ge ren yong yuan zai yi qi!

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