_____im no longer behind u...*

Monday, May 31, 2004

+::Kuantan Field Trip::+
sOrry Fel, jOey, w3! t!ng plus Oth3r 4o3o4 mOns... I cAnt gO oN the sAme daY as yOu peOple.. Really sOrry. I prOmise I wiLL gO finD yOu peePz aT niGht or wh3n3v3r I aM fr33. =)Well, I hOpe that everYone whO is going tO kUantan will hAve a gr3at tim3. The intin3rary seEms to be quite interesting. I hOpe that it will be as fun as it seems to be. Cant wait to see the seA turtles and the fire flies and many other things. =P Think i am gOnna take lOTza pictures Over there. ReaLLy hOpe everything will be smoOth-saiLing.

+::My plans fOr thiS hOlz::+
hMmm.. hOliday hAs finAlly cOme. ~weeEe~ In this June hOLiday, my pLans are aS fOlloWs:

@ eVery mOrning, i shall wake uP at seven and pLay bball for aBout 45 mIns.
@ hAve to pRActisE piaNo eVerydaY ( grAde eiGht exAms cOming!! oMG!)
@ aiM to cOmpleTe aLL hOmewOrk befOre gOing to KuantAn.
@ gOnna rev!se my woRk
@ gOnna gO swimMing at lEast twice or thrice a w33k.

siGh... hAve to lOSe at least FIVE kg thiS hOlZ.. if nOt, I will get it frOm mR ch33 when schOol reOpens... =X hahaz..

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

7:39 PM

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6 Comments:

heyhey... jiayou! you can definitely lose weight de. but dont lose too much weight, if not tl nothing to hug. =X only got skeletons. hahahax. =P enjoy the kuantan trip, must come find us k.. kk take care.. =]

By Seow Ting, at 8:14 PM

ha.. i also veri excited bout the kt trip.. hope we all will hav loads of fun :) .. u ar.. so naughty.. pangseh ur 4/3 classmates.. but i tink they will hav more un without u ;) ha.. jokin onli la.. but luckily to compensate this bad sin u have committed.. u have to go on the same day as me. Actually iz not compensate ok. Iz u veri lucky to go on the same dae as me.ha.muz take pic wif me.and glad u have a clear pic of wad u hav to do in ur holidaez. i ar. still haven plan anithing, muz help motivate me ar!! *help* also, holidae muz take a break, dun study study study okie, later u become a bookworm.aiya, actually wad i meant is muz go out wif me watch movie n shop more often okie.ha.. hope u have a great june holidaez!!!!!!

-marie:)aka hamham

By Anonymous, at 8:17 PM

.::beiKe shuO::. "lOls~ jia yOu piGlet orhs! juNe muSt wOrk haRd! suPport ya in all u dO ^______^ muSt dO well in pianO and graDes orhs. c ani shuai ge in kuantan tell me *evil laff* jK! hees..

By Anonymous, at 8:20 PM

chiong!...full speed ahead...
pigster...i really appreciate u leaving yr friends to b with me...i promise the whole kt trip i will stick to u to b fair...hahaX!...
lotsa love,~+up!d pig~

By Anonymous, at 8:42 PM

AHHH!! i'm so jealous of ur stupid pig!!! hahahaas.. oh manZ.. cannot go with you :( so sad! but nevermind larhZ~ hahas cOs it'll be fun with other mons tOo! =D hope you'll haf fun too dear.. oh manZ.. so much swimming.. and 5 KG?! goodness.. i just ate my chocs. hahaaas! lalala~ aiyOs. i'm fat. sO? lalala~ dun caRe!!

yay!! kuantan! i'm going to take lots of photos and lots of videos of our class!! wheeee!

By feL, at 9:20 PM

hmmm... so sadz... not on same day... but oso good la... in case all the goosebumps start "poppin" up and feeling of jealousy rise as i see stupid pig sticking to my most beloved Joan!??!? *jkjk...* hahaz... anwz, have fun at ur group... dun miss mi, and muz come find mi if u're free!!! hahaz... byez! ^_^waiting...^_^

By Anonymous, at 10:43 PM

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Saturday, May 29, 2004

Today, I went back to my grandma's house as usual. It is a place where I find solace. I really love the placidity there.I can relax and let my thoughts run as wild as they could. It is a place where I used to play like a juvenile, get chased by my grandma with a cane in her wrinkled hands and etc. It is a place that brought me up, until the day I stepped into secondary school. It is a place where I have lots of fond memories that are still etched in my mind.

I love taking a stroll around the neighbourhood where my grandma's house is situated. I remembered when I was young, I always go to Krangi War Memorial that is just a stone's throw away from my grandma's house. That place may sound creepy and send tendrils to hearts, but I feel that it is a place where I love to go. It is a quiet place where the trees danced with the breeze. I used to run about the trees over there while playing with my mom. My grandpa would bring us there too, and the cemetry that was as dead as silence would eventually be filled up with my cousins and my laughter. It is a good place to play catching. =)

My grandparents really love me a lot. They are always so caring and loving, especially to me. ( Not that I want to praise myself or what, but that is the truth) They always gorge me with food until my stomach couldnt take it anymore. Now, looking at my grandma, sadness just sweeps across me. Her face is etched with sorrow. Snarl of agony spreads over her face. From her eyes, I know she is in great pain. This pain has been with her for years, and as days pass, it gets deeper and deeper into her faltering body, and the degree gets larger too. It shrivels my heart to see her in this state. She is now dependent on her wheelchair, and of course, my dearest grandpa. I cannot bring myself to look into her eyes, as I know if I do, my cheeks will go wet. She is even starting to lose her voice now. She cant speak as well as before. Her memory is failing her too. I feel so useless. I cant do anything to help her, only praying hard for her everyday.

I really want to tell everyone how great my grandpa is. He is still as strong as ever, even if he has to take care of my grandma every single hour and to do some housechores. My grandpa, he himself is not that pink in health, he has got leg problems, but he is always by my grandma's side. He has to wake up at least three times every night to carry her onto the wheelchair and bring her to the toilet. When my grandma's conditions get worse, he has to bring her to and fro the hospital almost everyday. Isnt this is the kind of love everyone hopes for in their future?

No matter how ill you are, there is still someone who looks after you regardless of how tedious the tasks are?

Life gets tough at times. Life is short too. But if you are willing to add some other ingredients into it to spice it up a little, life will not be as short as it seems to be. We gain experience as we go and learn valuable lessons. We must never be tied down by anything in life. Just like what my grandparents have done... cherishing the years they are left with being together... =)

Joan

aLwAeS bEsIdE yOu

10:45 PM

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5 Comments:

i think your grandparents very sweeet.. *hUgs. don't think too much ba.. let nature take its course. i really admire you. you are so close to your mom and you have such loving grandparents. i know my grandma hates me but i don't care. because i don't respect her. you know why.. oh well.. be thankful okies? (: (though i already know you are) don't be too sad.. because ageing and getting sick is part of the process called life.. everyone experiences it. time will come when your grandparents live without pain. *hugs

By feL, at 11:49 PM

~touched~...take it easy pigster...
this is all part of life...-+up!d pig

By Anonymous, at 1:14 PM

hmm...think u are v blessed, i only got to see one of my grandparents when i was borned... and i didn't spend much time when she lived her last 11yrs... furthermore, we can't communicate!! she speaks dialect but i don't! hmm... dun think so much k... u're all so blessed!! =) *-waiting-*

By Anonymous, at 5:29 PM

helllooo. =D cool blog! nice piggyy! x)

By Jemima PuddleDuck, at 5:37 PM

hihi. truly envy you for having such great grandparents. i cant communicate well with my grandpa, who's living with me now. sometimes dont even speak in a day. =X *9uiLty- yeppx cherish your loved ones and take care~

By Seow Ting, at 9:13 PM